nonsensical reality

FYP-ing

2009-03-10T09:12:00.002+08:00

haix.. in sch oredi.. second day.. but lucky for today, my supervisor came.. well.. my partner call him but he never pick up his office fone.. but we went to his office to look for him and his there.. he actually forgot bout us.. then he pretend the he was joking.. haix.. but he will come here to give us the project detail.. but for now we are suppose to rot.. haix.. im bored...

see toh talk like some lullaby.. damn sleepy.. but we finally got something to do.. that is to learn our new software.. god damn boring laa seh.. dear is on strike again at werk.. but now its the company's fault.. coz they didnt get their pay that was promised.. haix.. boring laa.. and i think i got migraine..

well... gtg.. need to do some learning.. which actually took only 1hr.. but we will spread it for the whole day.. until six.. that sux big time..

sch hours now sux too.... its 8.30 every morning.. and from mon to thurs, it will be till 6 and fri will be till 5.30.. urgh!! i hate morning lesson... i juz cant wake up early...damn it... bye urh!!

ouh mr kinky.. we are seperated for so long.. and the longer tat was the more i think of u.. and i miss you so much.. im so sorry to cause you such trouble.. and i shall not disturb u... and if you were to pass by this blog and read this part... i will juz want to say thanx and sorry... u shud noe wad i mean...

Happy Valentine's day

2009-02-14T23:56:00.002+08:00

fourteen February two thousand and nine..
been such a long time since i visited here.. suppose to study for Monday's paper.. but.. opening the book make me feel sick.. so i decided to hop ard.. and i finally realize that i had been strike off frm your life.. like as if i never exist... well.. i am to be blamed tho.. for spoiling your life in such way.. well.. i had to move on.. tho i still can remember those time.. tho u run thru my mind.. haix..
well.. me and dear seems to be well off these daes.. tho i do feel like killing him.. so that when he is dead i can start flirting again.. well... been so long since i flirt.. and i cant flirt anymore.. even when dear guided me to flirt.. i juz cant do it.. and i noe its not because of him.. i juz got a lil rusty..
you noe wad i want.. i want to run in the garden free... where i have no responsiblities... i have no comitment... i will have no worries.. i can be me.. im sick of this.. i am so tired.. i want to run and run and run.. until my leg cant carry me anymore.. until i reach that dead end.. where my energy runs out.. i dun want to do this anymore.. i dun want to do things you ask me to do.. i want to say to you this.. WADEVER!!

its v day.. and i went out wif dear.. well.. it wasnt anything special.. i woke up uberly late.. thus that baka wad a lil monsterish.. wif the pain ear.. hex.. but he had been good.. he didnt kick up a big fuss which i expected him to.. this year hasnt been good anyway.. my nineteen wasnt celebrated.. so i didnt expect the year will be special.. actually, it sux.. you noe y?? because you cant forget me can you??!! great..u asked your fren to msg me now.. it used to be your gal.. and now your fren.. cant you get the message?? i hate you and i want you out of my life!! everytime i see your name, it makes me sick.. let alone toking bout you.. you not only spoil my day.. you spoil my year.. when will you grow up?? huh?? when?? you are an iritating arse that need to be sliced open.. tied.. stuffed with alcohol and sealed with concrete.. and throw you in the pigsty and burn you with their shyte.. that will make you urusai rite? hope you will live wonderfully wif all the oni..

you noe wad? i want to go to bed now... i may not be happy.. but im better of than you...

my birthday wish list

2009-01-04T00:18:00.003+08:00

had an enormous fight wif that stupid matrep(dear)!! so that ends up wif tons of blue black and bruises... and swollen lips... hopefully it will look fine tmr morning... hmm..

well, as u can see my title is my birthday wish list... so here it is..
1. 200 dollars so i can get that superb hair straightener at vivo
2. a new bag
3. a new set of clothes
4. a bike can??
5. a new fone
6. an external hard disk
7. a new lappy
8.

super long

2008-12-24T01:45:00.002+08:00

i know!! its been a long time since i updated... its not that i dun want to.. its juz that im lazie.. well.. its almost 2 and i have to get to bed soon coz i got an early morning tmr.. im having a bad cough and dripping nose.. ahahha.

anw... lappy had been super good... well.. mayb its bcoz i made unc reformat lappy during hari raya haji.. hehe.. i really cant tahan laa tat time.. now i have to download all the software back!!! darn it.. but now i have all the hidden games.. thanx to unc and i was stuck playing it for more than one week!!

and thanx to jess, im now stuck to facebook's pet society... crap it.. and thanx to me, i made sis stuck to it.. and i think thanx to sis, now wawa is in it too.. ahahahha.. ouh yaa.. thanx to me to that bella is in this society too... ahahahahaha... made her try then she now have her own pet..

anw... fer these days.. mom had been super naggy.. and sis is still not home yet.. so im the one who had to listen to her grumble and yell and nag.. and had to entertain a daughter that didnt come out from me.. wonder where had that gerl been?? haix.. aku lagi yang kena....

well... been out lately accompanying dear to get a job.. wif the economy and all... it is tougher than ever...we were out since laz weds... well.. we went to china town to get some stuff... and we cant get tru fahmi fone.. which is equal to edy paitau... we had walk a whole circle(yes!! we circle the whole place) chinatown and walk down to central c..... then we decided to give fahmi a suprise visit at his werk place.. ad we walk down to mustafa center.. yeps.. walk tru town.. then bugis.. then serangoon road.. and finally the destination.. without breakfast i was already grumbling to dear being hungry.. and tired.. but we search the whole mustafa for that damn guy.. not found.. we asked one of the guard(which is fahmi "job") and that arse sae, level 4 upstairs.. so we went up to find no guard at all!! so down we went to the main checkpt for the guards.. ask the main man, who luckly understand our language.. and he said there is no malay boy werking with them.. only an old timer at night shift.. so he suggested to look at serangoon plaza...but sadly, not found.. so we walk ard that mustafa again to double check.. and drop down at the nearest coffee shop to rest our feet and get a drink.. i really dun like those ppl food so i decided to get a fast drink so we can leave the place to get a decent food.. but somehow, dear manage to persuade me to have our brunch there.. had braini... suprisingly nice... meat was superb!! but ex like hell laaa!!! anw... after that we took the buz home.. too tired.. even plan to go fer the next interview was pospone...
nex dae... i made an appointment with rite's pizza fer his interview... which is at bukit merah.. thinking that it was at their central, we took buz there.. from one int to another.. suck!!! and with dear's illness of easily bus sick, i stuck perfect ten and laugh to my self fer more than one hour while munching some potato chips (trying not to distrub dear who is concentrating on his songs and trying not to get too sick!!) well.. upon reaching... i called and realise its not at the central there.. its at jalan bukit merah, blk 133(i still remember the damn blk).. well.. the central was center of the whole jalan.. and ended up in blk 55!! 133 and 55 is super far cry!!.. so we had to u-turn, walk tru the central then down the road.. the walk felt like half an hour.. maybe it did took half an hour!! coz the blk were not properly organised at all.. well.. half way walking, we sae 128.. so we shud be near.. but nooooo.... we had to walk such a long distance(its like twice the distance of blk a to blk n back to blk a in nanyang) wen we finally found the place, which there is no direct buz at all!!.. i sat down out side while he interview laa.. but the job was like crap.. remind me of oishi!! well, rider = kitchen... and paid only 4buck and hour... wif 50cent per docket... well.. company bike... rxz... so dear was considering.. if he take the job, he have to come down on sun evening.. which means he miss his soccer... so he took the soccer and let go of that job.. damn him!! but bagoz jugak!! sapa nak kasi die duet tambang!! so we walk the super long dist back to central, and thinking of going to sungai rd, we took the same buz back, but half wae it was raining that we had to chg plan and go hm.. we were so tired, that i didnt care bout food, and instd, i hit the bed and off to lala land str away..
sat, had mac fer brunch.. promised by dear.. and edy transfered only 100 instd of what he promise of 400!! and now he is on the run.. if he is reading this, i will have to sae, thanx eh edy!! kerana kau laa hidup merana... tapi takpe.. u juz messed with the wrg person.. not me, its wan.. well... run as far as u can.. dun worry, we wont be on your heels.. instd, it will be men in blue uniform on your heels... promised to pay us on 15 but paitau, then promised on 20.. but u paid a quarter... and u cut all the communication line btween.. nvm... juz to inform you arse, wan had already filed a police report.. and you will be paying for the damage you done.. and the claim.. and to give u a rough gauge of amt, it is 2000buck.. be prepared ok.... we want to help out kau tak nak kan.. skg, kau tanggung laa sendiri.. eh.. out of the 2000, we ask only 400 tau.. the rest kita yang bayar.. padahal, ni case, kau yang salah.. patut kau bayar.. hmmm.. since, u want to play this game, takpe.. ingat, ini makan dalam punya... takde main2....
well... for those readers reading, yepz, im super pissed off at him.. so dear is 100 times more pissed of at him.. i dun understand.. y muz he do this?? best kaan?? think we are stupid??
anw, on sun, his mom, brought us out to watch kuda kepang and barongan... it was her friend's daughter getting married... and they had cempaka puteh insted of dj and karaoking.. super unique and super nice.. we reached there at 12 and soon it started.. with the barongan ferst.. dun get it at ferst, but wth.. so next was my fav.. kuda kepang.. the girls went wild on their horses... and woow... suprise2 what these things want and can do... his mom helped out wif the rewang or wad, while me and dear stood at one coner smoking our lungs out watching them perform.. there were dances.. and escort... yaa.. so juz b4 we left, the guyz get their turn to get wild on their horses... yeps.. they were much more scarier.. and faster.. and there is one which is super naughty that it kept on disturbing ppl.. hahaha... but sad ly he is the cute one.. even dear sae it himself.. well.. i met dear's actual dad.. he looks ummmm normal?? hmmm..he look like beriman type of person.. and he went well wif dear... and his new wife, well, dun really favour her.. oooppps... anw, as soon as the guyz done getting wild, we left the place.. coz his mom have another place to go.. his sis(nana) bf(rafi)'s sister was getting married.. and she was invited.... me and dear didnt go, penat sgt siak... so we went hm, and left her alone to go there.. not to worry, she will meet nana there.. wateva.. i was super tired, so sleep and only woke up when i heard the soccer frm tv started... then we had our brunch plus dinner.. by the time, his mom had prepared our meal nicely..

damn.. look at the time, gtg.. try to update soon...

hey kinky, i miss you seh..

still at hm

2008-10-16T08:56:00.002+08:00

well.. its already 9.. and im still at home.. suppose to reach sch at 9.. but woke up late.. daa lambat, lambat kaan skali urh.. so i donno shud i go now and sit for the lecture class or go for the class after lunch... haiyaa... i juz feel like putting my head down and sleep jek.. hehehx... donno laa... now waiting fer either one of my classmate to log in to msn and ask how was the attendance.. if good then sleeping time.. if no good then come down now...

i miss my honey..

shud i, shud i not??

2008-10-15T20:52:00.002+08:00

thanx to my beloved cuzzie, im now in an internert cafe.. yea.. totally broke.. and now in chai chee.. well.. actuallie i got no where to go.. so i juz come along wif her.. yea.. THANX BELL!! well.. i skiped sch todae.. woke up late.. and it was almost 8.40.. and sch start at 9.. conferm2 lambat... so instead i followed sis to kkh.. yepz.. ate breakfast wif her.. had mcD.. yea!! and then we went to her werk place.. she got an mc.. so yea.. wait until her coliq(syura, iris and m-something.. cannot remember her name laa..) lunch time then ate.. we had a good laugh.. hhahx..then sis and i got no where to go.. so we called mom and mom was werking.. so we head home to get some rest.. yaa i noe... bnyk2 tempat we can go we went there... so she sleep... and i called bella... and planed a meet up.. yaa.. so we chilled then had diner... hahahx.. then smoked again.. ahhahax... then here we are... i donno where to surf.. so that y i am crapping here... hahahx.. sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.. what shud i do... i was thinking.. when dear come back, shud i tell him bout todae.. coz he sure will kill me... haix.. or will he understand?? hmm.. !*@&#^$% bye urh....

i miss my boyfriend!!!

fucked up day

2008-10-14T22:16:00.002+08:00

its tuesday.. the day im looking forward too.. it went quite well in the morning but started to sux in evening.. well.. suppose to b a good day, coz tuesdays = no school... but went to tele-visit.. was super funny tho.. and got one mak cik sooooooooooooo kapo.. irritating laa seh... well.. then went back to t.payoh.. slack and sleep alone.... sad kape?? then by ard six plus i left.... after his father made alot of noise... then i took 59 and i juz cudn't complete the god damn game.. so i stopped playing and looked out.. saw 28 so i decided to stop at afghan to switch... but the buz juz wudn't open the door coz we are far at the back of the busst0p.. and have to wait fer the buz to move a lil forward.. i got pissed off.. i xplain to him that i need to catch the buz infront.. but he juz smile and didnt open the door... god damn it.. since i taped the card and was at the door.. and a long queue of ppl behind me... no way of turning back.. so i went down... swearing the busses, i slowly walk to ngee ann busst0p... well... while smoking, i saw 291... and if i dun run i will miss it.. and that is equal to a long waiting time.. luckly fer me, the cigarette in hand was short.. so threw it away and ran.. the distance was quite far okie.. plus fats and no exercise fer years, i actually quite suprise that i cud reach the busst0p before the bus pull over... so while waiting that few seconds, i lean back to catch my breath and looked at that advertisement of high school musical 3... and i turn over, juz enuf time to see the bus approaching the busst0p.. but still in full speed.. i hail the bus but it didnt stop and juz moved on.. how could it!!!! so all that fats shaking and running was a waste... sat down and waited fer the next buz... finally i reach hm at 8++.. played wif nana... juz to put that cherry on top that OLD MAN was in foul mood and making a big fuss over every thing.. i juz feel like kicking his wrinkle arse and non-standing shyte.. and wif nana he is super nice.. but was making alot of noise at me.. since sis is not at hm.. he was even more fucked up.... so when he locked the gate... i called nana to come in and juz slammed the door.. what do i care.. and i think mom notice me being quite pissed at him.. she called nana and make nana play wif her so nana will not disturb me... arsehule.. the reason he is pissed off is bcoz of that three years old gerl who is super loud so she disturb his sleep...

gtg.. happy meal is here.. happy meal makes me happy!! hehe..

he is gone fer now.....

2008-10-10T12:23:00.001+08:00

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fer now laa... haix!! i miss him laa seh.. cepat laa alek!!

treasure when u still can

2008-10-06T00:35:00.003+08:00

its already monday.. and its totally monday blue for me.. and i already feel it altho its only 45 mins of monday... haix... wad i can sae to all of u is....
treasure the one u love...
take this few sec..
to think of that special one
his laughter
his smile
his hug
his voice
his call
his irritating
his fight
if u having a fight, do give in, and apologise coz u will never noe, he will not be there the next day...
if u love him, tell him now, coz mayb tmr, he will not be able to hear it frm u
if u owe him aniting, do it now, b4 its too late..
he mayb dead, or even alive..
but there are chances that u will not b able to see him animore..
u cant call him
u cant talk or fight wif him
u cant hug or see his smile
all u could is miss all of him, but he is nowhere to be reached....
so i advice u to do it now, tell him everyday..
and stay happy and treasure him all when u still can..
i not saying this bcoz i saw it somewhere..
but im saying it tru my heart............

day one

2008-10-02T14:38:00.006+08:00

i know.. its already second day of raye.. yest was a tiring day... altho i went to only two house.. and spend the rest of the day at the second house.. juz like every year... well.. got some picies... tho u can see all at sis blog... but today all my aunts, uncls, mom and dad mood went down.. well.. my grandfather fell sick again.. he is so fragile... and still sick.. but laz night i got worse.. so mom and dad went to fetch him and my grandmother and a few others (i think) as soon as mom finish her night shift... and send themto cgh... and mom juz got home.. dad had to come home earlier coz mom cudn't trust me taking care of nana... but me and nana are fine.. i even manage to make her sleep... and she is still sleeping.. which my sis got suprise coz she hardly cud sleep in the afternoon.. well.... i was woken up by a gentle nudge frm nana... saeing that she cudnt find her mother.. then i remembered that sis had to werk and im in charge of her... so i got up and look fer mom and dad.. but they were too not at home(juz like wad nana told me) so i called and mom explain to me... so i ordered mcD.. mom will pay me back... and 1hr delivery changed to 15mins.. how fast... so i quickly bath nana and ate, that was when dad came hm... i entertain nana... till we both got bored... so we left fer t mart.. i need to get sandals.. and bought nana ice cream, toy... and tissue... then otw hm nana ran ard... while i smoked... she run after a butterfly.. then stop and dun wanna move coz of one tiny ant.. so i told her to juz jump over it and she will be fine.. after so, she cont running and fell down.. and curse the ant for bitting her and cried.. so i carried her home and put a plaster and got her milk ready... played her new toy fer a moment and soon she got tired... she placed her head on the pillow watch casper which i played on my lappy.. and soon she was snoring away... mom came home.. a lil pale... she was tired... she didnt get much sleep yest, b4 going to werk... so i told her not to worry, i will watch over nana and clean the house.. forced her into her room.. after5sec she too was snorring away..and now, sadly, nana woke up... so i gtg.. bye!!

my family.. yepz.. me in pink.. and i noe, im fat!!
he calls me, "mataeir iman" cute rite(it means iman girlfriend)

and nana went frm this....

to this!!

baby nabeel... cute kaan???!!

me and me sis..

okie gtg...

selamat hari raya!!

2008-09-30T00:57:00.003+08:00

tomorrow will officially be hari raya.... every year i can pick any color i wish... but this year being as a pair... we had to decide early.. and we ended up in pink... yes ppl... fer such a long time.. i never wear pink.. actually i cant even remember when i wore pink the last time.. and this year i will be in pink.. pink and white is our theme..
well todae i went geylang wif him and his mom.. to get some last min stuff... i was super excited at ferst.. until i reach there... which was at ard 8plus... it was full pax... and filled wif lots and lots of minahs and matreps... no offense but shows some respect laa... i mean, give wae to elderly... or stop blowing puffs of cigarette at ppl's face.. cover up your tatoo... its not like im old fashon or what.. but the look of it.... makes me wanna scream at them.. and dun think u are some superior there... where u walk the place like no body's business... and stands there and making a jam there... urgh.... anw... i went there wif dear.. bought some kueh raya... and his shoe... i cudnt find mine... well.. i got my raya stuff all ready.. thanx to mom... but i need something for casual wear shoe... the shoe that im wearing is that grey one which is super tight now... or sis shoe... which she will scream and yell at me... yepz.. but the situation there makes me lose my mood to shop... plus the black shoe im wearing and the injury i got at my leg(will sae bout it later), makes me wanna go home... ard 9, my face started to show tiredness and irritating-ness.... and at ten dear got fed-up wif me dragging my self ard and saying no to every shoe store... we took the cab home... which i hit my head while entering the cab.... i was super sulking... carrying the items home(his house)... and draged my self to the room to pack my stuff... and smoking in the room... then he msged mom telling her that im still wif him.... and gave me cash to take cab home... which he noe, will cheer me up a lil... upon reaching hm... mom was super naggy... she nag and nag and nag... my fault tho....i promise her to put up the curtain yest... but i didnt... so i dragged my self to do it... and finally its done.. and to make it worse... sis wasnt hm and nana is super irritating... she runs ard the house and if its daytime... and scream and yell... which frustrates mom more... when sis reach hm... she got her part of the earfully nag... and nana went to mom's room and said,"nenek, asl maraa2.. jgn maraa2 laa kay sayang.."hahahax... super cute...
well... bout the injury, it wasnt aniting bad,,, on sat i was at dear's house... and i was playing psp and running into the room... when dear nudge me a lil... and i lost my balance and kicked the door... unintentionally... and after i got home, my last toe got swollen... and it hurts like hell when i wore my shoe and walk hm... and when im not wearing shoe... when it touched the gorund while walking... sun was spring cleaning... sis and i and nana cleaned the house... and i step-ed on something... which broke and puncture my left foot... and yes, it was my injured foot... so fer the rest of the day, i tried not to hobble ard... while going tru and fro of t mart... with bella.... bla2... that night i decided i need to rearrange my room so that i can fit in the small foldable chair/bed in my room and still be spacious... and sadly and clumsily(fine... I AM SILLY) i accidentally drop one of the bed end on that toe... i was bitting my lips not to yell... so that made my left foot worse.. and today(yesterday if im following the time) i had to walk a long distance hobbling ard... yeah... lost my mood... hmmm... well...its 1.30am.. and im cracving for a smoke... so i shall smoke now... disturb dear by calling him a thousand times.... and then off to bed.... good night humans!!!

Selamat Hari Raya to all muslims... Maaf Zahir Dan Batin.. Jika saya ada buat silap etc... maaf kan laa eh...

and selamat hari raya to specials:-
darling aishah (sorry tak jadi klur double date... next time eh)
all my evss frens...
all my nyp frens..
all my czps and ynps frens..
and lokman nurhakim...
and shahida..
and bella...
and julee...
and wanie...
and dear reduwan...
mom...
okie the list can go on.. gtg.. bye...

2008-09-15T00:07:00.002+08:00

wants
1. contact lens
2. moto
3. paint and re-arrange my room
4. do ma hair! plus the extention!!!!
5. go out wif dear and darl and darl's dear and have a wonderful time together

needs
1. clean my room
2. shoes
3. raya clothings fer both of us
4. pay the fines and bills
5. jeans

wishes
1. to last long (and not be cheated and less fighting)
2. to lose weight (since so long yet wish not granted -_-")
3. everything to settles so he can get that job
4. to be b-e-a-u-ti-ful (haha!!)
5. i have magic can? (reading harry potter laa)

well.. as u can see... i decided to come up with my 5 wants, needs and wishes.. i donno what i wand and need so i juz put wad ever that i cud think of.. so its not going to last long... raya is nearing... omg.... well.... hmm.. lets see.. what is on my mind oth than that H.P. story.. im half wae more to go in sch.. i hope.. well, i and dear got into conflict juz now... that make me think.. y do i hate to stay at hm so much.. i see his fam more that i see mine... then when i think ova again my qn... i remembered y.. like wad dear would sae... PANAS PANAS!! hahahx... well.. to compare... when at hm... i will not be able to juz lie down and play game for sooooo long without being disturb... and i dun need to clean the house.. coz ferstly, that is not my house.. and secondly, his mom cleans everyday so that makes the house clean everydae.. hahahaha!! so that means... my day todae was boring... chilled at his house... did the raya lights then played game.... while dear, became the woman and hog over the fone fer hours toking to his fren... good thing is, he wont be making me to go do somethings... like making me entertain him with him messaging using the house fone.. ahhahahax... or sleep and kick me.. hahah.. he actually dont kick when he sleep.. only put his heavy leg over mine which will cause leg cramp... hahahax.. then his sis came hm with the curtains... which was gorgeous!! love it seh.. then we joked ard.. and ended up getting quite pissed coz he says that i got rabbit teeth.. which i disagree... then watch tv... it wasssssssssssssss sooooooooooooooooo borring laa.... damn.. im so sleepy seh... gez i go sleep now laa... or go tp H.P. land till i sleep...(which wont last long) will update sooooon....

to that tagger... ur point is?? and what u expect me to sae.. and cant u see im trying to ignore u????

okie... going to sleep...

to those taggers

2008-09-12T23:22:00.003+08:00

let me make this clear... ferstly, im not a slut... im juz open minded.. that is juz hu i am.. and on regards of those comments on my breast.. im juz ignoring them.. only people with no manners... i wudnt care bout these jerks... so let them sae... those are only words.. words cant kill if you dun take it to heart.. and whats more, these ppl dun noe me and vice versa.. so to hell with them... and obviously they got low self esteem.. coz they dun even have the guts to put in their actual nick let alone names... which only shows that they are cowards... haha!! haiyaaa.... come back to ya ppl.. anw,thanx fer the honest comments tho...

happy fasting to all muslim ppl

2008-08-31T22:48:00.004+08:00

yepz.. its almost time again... one more mth to raya... and i dun feel like celebrating tis year.. one thing out of my mind is my clothes... sis had decided to choose fer me.. and its blue again... i made alot of noise to mom fer mth about having white or red... and not blue coz every year i will have at least one blue.. and yet this year, another blue one.. haix.. have to make do with it.. since its my main fer this year... hopefully dear and i will go shopping for raya this year... but wont hope fer to much.. due to alot of financial constrain... and dear juz got his new job... and alot of fines to pay.. esp fer his bike.. lets see... we need to get XXX for the hdb fines... XX for the traffic police fine.. XXX for the installment... XXX for the bill... another XXX for that thing that kick us out of the job.. thats y im so stressed out.. at some point of time, i feel like loan ing money from ah long.. hahahx.. dead serious... but two factors that stop me.... one, i dunno where to get one... and two, they need two ic (diffrent address) and above 21.. so modern oredie.. hahax.. and if we were to take one.. then will we be able to pay it back on time??
i noe, some of u may joke, like me selling my self.. ferstly im not that cheap to do so.. and secondly, i got face.... and ego too.. so i will not do it... NEVER!! haix... okie2... problems one side...
todae... i became dear victim.. yepz.. and i asked fer it.. ahahax. well... i wanted him to make up fer me.. so finally he decided to do so.. and he did the make up.. and i cant peek to the mirror.. and everytime i do so.. i got punch at my legs... hurts!!! and the wae he make up and mine is so diff... and his is nice too... lucklie... and i did the final touches and im readie to go... hahax.. while he make up fer me, i flashed back... frm the ferst dae i noe him until todae... frm those happy daes.. those angry days.. those sad daes... fight daes... shy daes... nonsense daes... we had fun together.. and we were alwaes there to hold each other's hand and pull along to our side... to run together... and support each other... frm daes where we dun have private transportation.. where we will take a cab to town on our off daes and frm town, we will walk all the wae to bugis, to clark quay..to china town.. then to velocity... and take a cab back to his house wif shopping stuff to eat... and the cab will only cost us under $6... and he will trick me to taking another cab home wif new bought stuff.. and pamper me... and when we had a bike, we will go to riverside point almost every friday and sat to see gfk(go fly kite).. which was beautiful!! tho now all that wont be happening fer quite sometime, im still happy... we are juz facing another huge obstacle and once we are free from that.. we will have another enjoyable life together again...
hmmm... tmr will be the ferst dae of ramadan... yepz... fasting mth is here.. and i got no mood... but, i will fast... of coz... will try not to miss it... and after all the horrors i get this year.. i will decided to repent.. yepz.. dun laugh at me.. i want to learn back everything that i shud... and start moving to the proper direction.. and insha'allah... HE will guide me along... and im doing it willingly... i got enuf of crap.. and im old enuf to noe wads right and wads wrong... and i got my own brain to think... so i decided to start standing up... and walk instead of lazying ard and crawl...
to those taggers... hmm.. i will decide to ignore that person who commented on my tits.. it my tits.. not yours... so too bad pervert...!! and the other one... thanx... tho this blg seems to be dead... but still thanx...
okie gtg.. on the line wif him...

late update...

2008-08-20T23:09:00.006+08:00

well.. first off ... is to wanie and sabri....(ako tau lambat... hehhehe.. mls urh nak update..hehe) congrats.. for the tunang.... hahahx... harap hingga(or shud i sae Hing Ga) khawin eh... hahahx.. anw, wanie was such a beau in the baju.. hahahx...

okie... next is todae's paper.. it sux.. i didnt noe how to do it... ferst time in my life i decided not to juz scribble crap and hand in short answer... hahax.. well one down, two to go... next paper is on fri.. ooad.. damn.. then tues is nt... haix.. shud start studying for ooad.. hmmm..

went to geylang juz now.. then we saw lots of police car. and me, being kaisu, i make dear pass by the lorong to see if any of the girls still making $... and not a single sight of those prostitute laa seh.. all men smoking and toking.. tho, most of the ciggie sellers have gone to hiding, some still risk their life selling the same disgusting taste $6 ciggie at the main road.. then after getting bored, we left to head hm.. wen we saw a huge group of mens walking towards one direction.. lots and lots of them.. being pure singaporean, we kiasued and follow.. but ended up seeing noting... they went into a building fer prayers.. or something like that laa kaan.. so we left for hm.. wen a police car stop us.. damn... then they request for ic, driving license, road tax, insurance...for him laa.. and me ic only.. so they checked us, i was so blur... he ask wad im werking as, and i need like 5sec to react... and i dun noe how to get the imem...and while dear was toking to him, i stood still when i saw a cockroach... i almost yell when they call me to take down my particulars... ahahx.. i relise, the blue light is brighter and more irritating then the red light.. hahax.. the guy who wrote down the particulars was sooooo cute., hahahx..., even dear agree wif me.. hahax.. well, i had to cut short the story.... so after that we left fer h,m.... dear keep on laughing at me for being so blur.. idiot him...

hmmm.. someone is so used to be in singapore that he is adopting singapore kiasu and kaypo ness... eheheh.. he want to see my boring and almost dead blog.. so i muz end here.. wad i plan to update.. tak jadi laa... mcm mls gitu.. anw.. for pics on wanie and sabri engagement.. go to sis's blog... haha... i never take pic... coz i spend most of the time in front of the fan or go smoke... hahahx.. and eat laa.. camne tak gemok... well..planning to pay back my puase... soon.. see how laa... and dun laugh... i seriously want to learn how to pray again.. taobat laa.. hahax.. but im serious...

gtg.. he is on the line.... ouh yaa.. pics frm lalat's kahwin...

there he is.. dear and lalat..

i like the cake!!!!! lalat and cepit.. and the camera man...

crush new designed helmet...

frm bottom left: afiz(i think), khai,along, mon, kecik, ??, bun(i think)
??, ??, acit, wan.misai/botak, wan.senyum/romeo(utk sehari jek), adi
the ?? all i cannot remember their name laa... ahahhax... sorry.. and mia are adenin and lalat.. those are the only one i noe laa kaan..

selamat penantin baru lalat

2008-08-10T11:24:00.001+08:00

it was national dae yest.... so i went out wif him.. god damn tiring seh...
ferst off is to lalat's wedding.. everyone.. i mean the escort riders was wearing yellow crush tee.. while me in black polo.. well wadever laa kan.. im not a crush.. he is.. not me.. well.. he saes not officially yet.. anw... made a couple of new friends... we are suppose to meet at lalat's wife(cepet) house at 10.30... and him noeing how they are... we left home at 10.30... then upon reaching the house, they have not reach yet... i msg nabilah, asking where are they.. and they juz left their house... i got her num the night b4 when we came to watch lalat angkat nikah.. so dear msg wan and we bought a drink and stayed under wan's blk.. which was only one or two blk awae...after everyone arrive... and dear wore romeo's tee.. which i donno hu... kecik took out lalat's bike as he will will be riding it.. lalat all famous to them pink bike... hahahx.. they started palnning... and that is when the ladies... yaya, nad and nabilah started protesting.... lalat wished for all the ladies to stay at cepet's.. while the guys went for escort.. the ladies was making alot of noise... dear had alreadie passed me my things and cigarette... i was like okieeeeeee.... i gez i will juz sit ard... the ladies were making face and noises.. so finally, we were allowed to follow... so from chai chee, we went to lalat's at ubi... and waited fer lalat to come down... once there, we bought drinks and smoked.. then escort started.. everything was fine until we reach chai chee... we were not allowed to go in until cepet's sister's husband comes in.. it was a two couple wedding.. so we waited outside under the hot sun... once the other side arrive with their number of vans.... we went in to send lalat in... then we had to wait... again.. fer the other side to walk in, silat, and bla bla bla... so the riders gave up and park their bike and settle them self... there was two compang.. and was very messy.... coz the other side was palying and this side wanted to start.. then this side wanted to do this and the other side was doing that... but overall.. i was good.. the planner quickly slove problems... then we watch the silat fer lalat... saw diff kind of silat.. there was this one which did monkey and he reallie look like monkey(some one said) to me okie laa... then tiger, snake and alot i donno.. fie or shud i call acit did burnout.. two round of donut sucessfully... with his kr and not much oil.. and a botak tire.... hhahax... we were stunned when someone bmx or something like tat... fight.. yaya said he got locked when he heard the kompang... so they pulled him aside... and it went fine... we chill a thousand times... ate.. the food was yum-ilecous... done by nora(or something like tat) wedding services.. the food was never ending... there was brownie the best of all... and cute egg tart.. and donno wad and donno wad... cool..whe chilled.. and yaya sang a sone wif kecik.. the song that yaya used to sing wif along when they were together... along was eating and suddenly he lost his appetite.. he was so pasrah... poor thing him...we sat at the car park and watch the others did burnout... hahax.. darker that acit's... but not so perfect laa... then it wanted to rain... so every one rode their bike to void deck so the bike wont get wet... that signal dear to leave.. i was so worn out from following nabilah ard... we went to salam them and khai intended to hide dear or shud i call senyum or romeo sehari's bike... when we turned and saw him.. red handed.. ahahahx... so he returned the bike and we left to buy cigarette(dear and i manage to finish a whole box by 4 hours) and to watch firewerks....
they wanted to watch wif us.. but donno sit there and wait fer wad.. we parked bike behind suntec.. nad walked to the bridge.. which was jam pax... human traffic is so much horrible.. coz ppl kept on pushing.. and he had to smell their body.. god.. it was horrible... once we were free frm that jam... we find a spot at the bridge.. and watch the heart shape.. and the firewerks... beautiful... as soon as fire werks done we left... he rode back to tamp and crush msg to meet at east coast... so we skiped the meeting... bought a drink and kacang.. sad at void deck and ate... that was when mom disturb.. she juz came hm.. and i was smoking... haix.. so i had to pack up and go up... dear forget to give me some cigarette!!! haix.. was so tired that i went to bed early... and now im up.. and i feel like going to dear's... and not follow father side's wedding.. haix... i think i will tell mom that i cannot stay fer long.. hopefully she wont make noise...

i wil upload the pics soon...

Singapore is such a small country

2008-07-12T23:28:00.002+08:00

i juz came back hm.. and i decided to check my tagboard.. so after i relink annu, i might as well post something laa kaan..
i said tat s'pore is such a small country... act dear said that to me juz now.. well, i went over to his house to slack.. then after i wake up(was slapped from him) i wash up and he ask me to buy food fer his mom and us.. so while i was doing my hair... his mom called him.. and i heard someone at the door laa... so he ask me to check and it was his friend.. he wanted to send invitation card.. he was going to get married.. so ya... then we went out.. got lost.. hahah.. act not lost laa.. we missed our exit and exit at the wrong place.. so ended up a 30mins++ journey.. hahax.. bought food... (i insisted to buy it at pasar malam at sengkang) we sat under my blk to eat then his friend who paid him the visit, drive (or is it ride?? he was on the bike).. hahahx.. dear and i laugh.. so the guy that we saw always with that bike was his friend's friend.. then they chatted alot... i eventually got bored and smoke more than i suppose to.. but dear didnt seem to realise it... packed my things.. then went up.. and here i am.. ahhaha.. so isnt singapore so small?? hahaha..
im dying finding a job... god!!! its soooo boring laa... my daily routine goes like this...
monday - sch till 8 pm... (damn night class)
tuesday - slack over his... clean the house and watch my fav shows...
wednesday - sch till 3 then go over his and slack and have dinner..
thursday - come late to sch.. ends at 5 but slip out early and go over his...slack and dinner...
friday - come late to sch.. skip ferst lesson.. ends at 4.. slip out.. go over his, slack and dinner.
saturday - wake up late.. go over to his... sleep.. slack.. force him to go out... dinner..
sunday - go over his.. sleep.. go out... his plan.. complain coz the next day is monday..
boring right.. but better than stay at hm... haix..
i still got 5 more project to do.. and 3 xam to study.. and dunno how many common test..
ca report - overdue..
is presentation
nt report...
ooad rent movie..
aim flash animation
ddi exam on 20th
ooad on 22nd
nt on 26th..
haixxxxx.. so sian.. shud start studying and stop slacking..
im at hm alone.. wif dad i think.. well sis isnt hm.. so is nuryna.. my assumtion is that they are over at nenek's... im sooooooooooooooooooooo bored... cant wait fer tml.. wanna go out... whoo-huuu.. gtg.. bye..

such a fun day

2008-07-06T23:08:00.002+08:00

this blog is like dead.. no one tagged me.. i dun update my blog.. and its like no one ever visit it.. not that i dun like it that was.. i love it.. but my blog looks sad.... hahahx.. but i think i will keep it that way... coz i love it when no one ever visit it.. i dunno y.. but i like prefer it to look dead...

dear and i had a great day today.. well we actually wanted to do it yest.. but i came late and it was raining.. so today i came a lil bit earlier compared to yest.. and it wasnt raining.. actuallie we planned to juz go swimming.. but then instd we went sentosa.. yepz.. juz the two of us.. u mite sae boring.. but i had a great deal of fun.. instd of our normal weekends... where we juz stay over his house and chat wif his mom.. hahaha... or some rounding in town at night.. we actually stayed out for more then half of the day.. tiring tho.. but fun.. it had been sometime since we talk and go out like that... and to my suprise, we didnt actuallie fight until never tok or give the cold shoulder for a period of time.. we joke ard.. we swam fer a very short time due to some inconsiderate woman leaving her kotex floating ard.. ahhaha.. and to dear's stupidity he actuallie pick it up and throw it further.. well.. at ferst we tot it was juz some litter or something.. never did we tot it was kotex.. hahahhahax.. disgusting xia... well... then we lost the feel of swimming due to it and felt dirty... we went off to find shower room.. which was freaking far!! saw the skyride and luge ride.. and almost took the ride... but due to financial constrain and long queue, we decided not to.. so we hop on the buz to habourfront and i was hungry... so we went to find a decent place to have dinner.. and ramen ten looks nice.. after 2hours walking thru habourfront and vivo.. we settle in ramen ten.. the waiting time to be served with food was so long... and strangely food was served before water... which is good so our drink will not be empty when food arrive.. but normally its drink then food.. hahahx.. but nvm.. and i came to a shock when the bill arrive.. but remain cool and pay the bill and left as if im a rich woman.. after some distance, we freaked out.. and he offered to half the bill wif me.. walked ard.. and he send me hm.. we sat at the void deck and talk and talk and talk.. we talk mainly abt his past... i was happy to see him so talkative rather then his quiet self... and i relise that he was not that hot tampered as laz time.. im so happy.. tho the situation now isnt that good.. he may juz go and leave he alone anytime.. we both are mentally prepared.. but i donno when the time comes how will it go.. and physically too.. we had discussed what i will take back when he goes.. and what i keep at hm and what i keep over at his.. and how to settle the phone bills, the bike, etc..

well.. i gtg.. he is on the line right now.. and i have to do some project too... muaackz..

juz fer ur info.. wadever you read here is unknowned to him.. he does not know i keeps a blog.. and i dun intend to tell him.. well not now.. will tell when im ready.. so juz keep this to yourself and dun hint, tell (purposely or not) wadever.. he muz not noe bout this blog.. which is half dead..

welll

2008-06-16T11:52:00.003+08:00

LEO - THE SEX MANIAC (7/23-8/22) Very talkative. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, Fun and SEXY. Have own unique appeal. Irresistible. Most caring person you'll ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with...they will kick your ass... u might end up crying...
CAPRICORN - THE SEXY ONE (12/22-1/19) Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always Wants the last word.Rare to find. Caring. Smart. Sweet. Loud. Loyal. Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please.Loves to smile.Beautiful laugh.Patient.Amazing in the you know where..!!! Bit of naughty.The one and only.

well.. i saw this at sis blog.. hahahx.. i got no comments.. esp the green colored.. its so true.. *tak tau malu eh* **blush** anw.. since im here let me sae a few werds.. current location : school hhahaha.. yepz.. got xtra class fer DDI.. which contains only 3 ppl.. that is me, pei ling and dan.. and dan had just left the place fer his cca.. hahahaha.. todae is class bbq.. dunno if going not.. mayb not... since dear is werking.. i wont go lor.. hahah.. i want him to send me and pick me up.. bluek.. buz now very expensive okie.. hahahahah... hmm.. almost 12noon.. then class end.. then can go eat!!! hehehehe... byeeee.. update more when i reach hm todae.. since i got no where to go.. unless im going to werkplace.. see how lor..hehehehe... byeeeeeeee!!

hmm

2008-06-03T23:20:00.002+08:00

im at home alone right now.. mom is on her night shift, and dad is werking.. and sis decided to sleep over at aunt's house wif nana.. so that leaves me alone at hm.. FREEDOM!! hehehe.. well.. actually it dun mean much.. only that no one will make alot of noise and disturb my peace.. haha.. currently waiting fer him to call me.. like now im totally bored.. so i force my self to study for tomorrow IS test... haix.. im going to hate this.... then i gez i will be doing hw.. since my friends webbie is down.. haix.. does any one of u noe another webbie fer me to watch friends fer free.. hehehe.. im like stuck to it all over again.. not my fault that dear is bz at werk most of the time so i have to search fer something to entertain my self.. bored bored bored.. well.. go to go and study fer tml..

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i hate IS
i hate NT
i hate ITP
i hate OOAD
i hate NTP
those are my current hate list fer sch modules.. on to remind me, i got night make up class fer OOAD.. damn.. and project to urgh abt are... NTP, CA.. i can only remember tat.. hw to think, OOAD, RAD... urmm.. test, AIM, IS, CA.. i think that is all i noe fer noe.. have to get my common test schedule soon... haix.........!!

thanx to dayah im stuck to this song..

2008-05-27T00:18:00.000+08:00

Ah Rindu Lagi

Berdegup jantungku
Bilaku dengar namamu ah ah
Berdebarnya hati
Ah rinduku datang lagi
Maluku malu dikau buat tak tahu
Rindu oh rindu kuresah tak menentu

Berdegup jantungku
Mendengarkan namamu ah ah
Berdebarnya hati
Mabukku datang lagi
Ikutkan hati konon ingin membenci
Ikutkan nafsu tubuhku jadi lesu

Semakin kucuba lagi
Semakin kau menghantui
Tiap kali kumenghalang
Ku mabuk kepayang

Aku tak tahan lagi
Aku tak ingin lagi
Sakit rindu begini
Datang pergi sesuka hati

special thanx

2008-05-26T23:11:00.002+08:00

im like the happiest person ever!!!

to those who noe bout the story... pls dun spread it ard.. and well.. im at fault too... long story.. so wont tell u the ending.. overall.. a happy ending..(hopefully)

special thanx to:
hafiz csc: thanx fer being there fer me.. and talk me tru and advice me and everything.. and cheer me up and telling its not the end of the werld.. thank you so much..
faiz: thanx fer listening to me and advice me.. and calm me down.. and cheer me up.. thank you so much..
annu: thanx fer helping me out and be there fer me too.. u help me alot u noe.. thank you so much..
dayah:thanx fer being there at the break down point.. and cheer me up and listen to me.. and make me laugh.. with the dangdut and sad2 songs while toking to iritating cust.. hahahx.. thank you very much..
mona: thanx fer being there fer me.. and cheering up fer me wif the lovely chocs(i fought wif ameerul for it.. hahah) thank you so much..
ameerul: thanx fer cheering me up esp wif the fake msn thing.. hahahax.. and the advice.. thank you so much..
shirin: thaix fer the advice and all... and understanding me.. and giving me strength and encouragement.. thank you so much..
agnes and priscilla: thanx fer making me laugh and help me out.. and ur urmmm.. advice?? hahaha.. thank you so much..

and thanx the rest of csc for being kapo.. haha juz kiddin.. for showing me your there....

i noe.. not al of you read this.. at most only 2 or 3 of u only.. but i want to thank u ppl..

i still want him back in my life!!!!

2008-05-26T09:09:00.002+08:00

I HAD THREW MY PRIDE AND EVERYTHING...
I JUST DESPERATELY WANT HIM BACK IN MY LIFE!!! I WANT HIM BACK!! PLEASE!! ouh god.. pls give him back to me... i love him so much!!!

the truth

2008-05-24T23:02:00.002+08:00

im glad i found out the truth laa... i didnt go tru wad i planed to do.. hahax.. he actuallie realise me being so akward towards him and so he ask me y.. i was like lost fer a moment.. since he was in a good mood to tok.. and he was the one who ask me to sae it out.. so yaa.. i told him laa.. i told him bout how unhappy i was with the bitch pic in his hp.. and the wae he had been behaving laa... so fer a moment i tot he was going to get pissed off or something.. but he didnt laa... he act xplain to me how the pic got in and bla3... well.. it started with the bitch wanting to see his hp coz they all like jakon like tat.. so he pass it to her.. then she bluetooth her pic in and give a reason that her other phone got no bluetooth.. which i dun understand y she did it laa.. his hp dun have infra-red anw... but whatever it is.. its the gerl being bitchy laa.. and so he like fuck care with her.. and she put the pics in the folders for i dunno wad reason she have.. and when he got back his hp, he went tru his images and didnt see her pic... so he tot its not inside laa... bla3... and he dun bother to explore.. he he went back to werk.. ect...then reach hm then he explore the phone.. and saw the pic.. but cant be bothered to move or delete the pic.. and totally forgot bout it... so it sounds like the bitch is purposely finding fault wif me laa.. something like she wants me to fight wif him... so wadever it is... he told me he was sorry fer all that laa.. i was like ouh okie.. somehow not totally convince.. hehehe... but i dun care laa.. i meant if he saes its that wae.. then okie fine laa.. i got no mood to make that bitch trouble my mind every sec of my day.. i got other thing to think about laa... and if i were to find out he is liying or wadever that is related to that action.. then he is done fer it laa.. im going to make him suffer.. well.. haven think of how to make him suffer.. but i will laa.... and since that bitch is not werking todae.. so i wont noe it fer sure...alaaaaaaaaa.. fuck care laa.. i got no mood to think bout it.. i dun wanna think bout it.. it juz make me feel so fucked up.. i hope he is telling me the truth... i really hope so... i prayed every nite to god.. that if something were going on between them then i leave it to HIM on wad to do wif them laa... i prayed that it is not as wad i tot it is.. i prayed that he didnt do it to me.. i prayed that i am his one and only.. i also prayed that i will be happy wif him in future and not be like this... i had been praying alot.. i let HIM decide.. i let HIM to write the story.. i only pray and hope fer the best for my relationsip with him.. and i noe i dun want to let him go.. sometimes i juz feel like giving up on him.. but there is this urge that force me to move forward.. HE gave me strength to continue... and i hope he will keep on supporting me..

well.. my eyes are heavy.. i didnt get any sleep... yet i didnt regret it..(okie fine a lil bit of regret) but it was worth it.. =D

okei.. my eyes cant stand it.. it needs some rest... after all that... and i hope i will got to a nice dreamland......

come to think of it

2008-05-21T20:51:00.002+08:00

well.. i did remember someone warn me bout that lady flirting wif his a few times.. so much of trusting him.. haix.. well.. on the wae to my hell(sch) i sought out a plan.. but this need alot of eyes.. hmm.. come to think of it.. since he does not wanna tell me bout his past... esp his ex.. and he had been so secretive wif his mobile... something muz be wrong laa... well.. luckie fer me.. i manage to get that number that "his sister" msg... and all of his ex number.. now i need a private number.. a lil research on that number and his ex... and of coz the person in that pic.. as much as i want to ask dayah fer help.. i cant.. its her best fren.. so i will need someone who hate that person in that pic and who i can trust.. and also those who dont tok much but very observant... in my brain the plan is drawing out.. but i need alot of time.. as i need the perfect time... hmm... and i oso need someone who werks everyday.. esp when im not werking... men can be men.. but im not going to use the same approach i used wif my ex.. as i noe that will not werk.. if he will not speak then i will make his action answer me..

too bad fer him that i had a hundreds of scandals laz time.. and i noe how it werk ard and not get caught.. and i gez my ferst move was right afterall.. since he had ever caught me msging mr kinky... i noe how he moves to get his wants.. so i have to be smart with this one.. hopefully it can werk.. and no one reading this blog will blurt a werd on this... haix.... ferst time im looking forward to sat to go to werk.. i cant wait... enuf bout him..

well.. changing my blog add... will tag u guys when my blog is done.. coz i noe someone is leaking out some info to him... hmm... sch sux... i cant stand it laa... im like back to square one.. only werse, i got will have a hard time running away.. i feel like dropping out this sem.. i got no more mood to study... but as much as i want to.. i cant laa... haix... hmm...

im feel so sick.. and duh confuse... i need spy... ITS FOUR FREAKING PICTURE OF THE PERSON I HATED LAA... i wonder what is he up to............

what is in my head rite now..

2008-05-20T22:42:00.002+08:00

for those who read this.. pls pls pls dont tell reduwan... basically he dun really noe i got a blog... else he wanna read it... haix... that will kill me... i noe.. this is my blog.. bla3.. and its my free space to write what ever i want... but he.... well.. he's a lil diff... coz he is like so called hot tempered... hmm... and he will 4ever sae he is right laa... sometimes its true laa.. that he is right.. but i got my points too laa...anw.. its not that i want to keep things frm him.. but its his reaction laa.. will make me suffer... so whatever you read here(esp for csc ppl) pls pls pls!! keep it to ur self... tok here.. end it here... i hope i can trust u guyz...

well... the story started laz week.. when his grandmother passed away ( adeq says some prayers).. i dun have sch that day.. so i decided to drop down at his house and see how is he doing... everything went out fine until my guts told me to read his msg... and wow... to my suprise the is tis unknown number msg him.. it was flirtatious.. and things like when will you call me kind of msg.. that means that is not a first they tok to each other laa... hmm... and to make it worse, the msges comes in between of my msges and calls... that means he got a lot of chances that he can tell me... but he chose no to laa... and a few more msges after my call... that is when he saes he wanna to sleep.. and he ask me to sleep too.. well.. im not so was he lying to me.. and he was up at nite toking to her..(well the wae the person msg more like a gerl wound msg laa.. with all the style2 like uUu.. asL lAmE nYe nAak caLl i..) hmm.. i was so upset.. when you were to read ur guy msg and found that u will be upset rite??(that is if ur a gerl laa) so i step out of the room and pretend to watch tv outside laa... it that y he dun like me to touch his phone?? so when i calm down.. thought and reassure that that msg might not he for him i went in and ask him.. he got pissed off that i was bringing attitude.. like wtf laa... i ask him nicely laa... but like fuck laa.. we fought.. and guyz being egoistic he didnt apologize.. he told me that his sis used his phone the night before... i ask him y didnt tell me.. he even blame me that i didnt tell me when sariman msg me.. well.. he was there when sariman msg me laa.. so fine.. i pretend to belive him and shut up abt the topic laa.. i waited fer his next move.. and more evidence for me laa..

then juz now while he was sleeping.. i decided to serch tru his phone laa.. the msg all was clean.. so i look tru his his manager file... then i went into this folder after folder.. blank->enter code->passwerd->security and to my suprise again i saw 4 female pic.. and i noe who is the gerl.. and it was ivy.. yes.. csc ivy.. whatever her name is laa.. four pictures!! and kept in there as if it was hidden.. hmm.. so what does that show?? i didnt wanted to jump the gun so i didnt sae aniting.. he woke up and saw me with his phone.. he panic fer a moment.. and ask me wad i was doing wif his phone.. i told him i was watching tv.. i wanted to see how long he wanted to keep it away frm me... well.. on the bike otw hm, i cant stand the urge to ask, so i did.. i make it sound like it come in the blue moon.. ferstly he sae he didnt noe that it was inside.. then when reach my house, i showed him the pics.. then he sae she wanted to bluetooth it to donno hu.. then he keep the pic.. what does it show?? tell me laa!! im like so pissed off... but i cant to sae how laa.... i donno wad to sae laa.. i feel like crying.. but i donno how to cry.. my tears like a dried well... im so confuse.. i donno how to trust him laa.. shud i trust him?? i donno.. well.. i shud look for more evidence... who care to help me?? haix...

well.. he is actuallie on the line with me now.. haix.. i donno laa.. pls tell me wad to do..........

tiring dae

2008-05-12T22:42:00.003+08:00

well.. sch suppose to end by 8.30pm.. so by 8.30 i left.. to the ladies.. then off to bus stop.. well... the buz came.. but i was smoking.. ( i told dear that i miss this buz) so i waited fer the next.. which only came at 9.20!! can u believe it...4 buses of 159, 3 buses of 45 and 3 of the cool bus.. then when it finally came.. it was full pack.. as i expected.. i was so pissed off.. so i went back of the bus stop and smoke.... then dear call me.. i told him the story.. coz i msg him that i want to take cab.. then i gave up.... hail for a thousand cab.. i managed to walk 1 bus stop up... like fuck laa... then finally i got a cab... and thankfully a comfy one.. which took nets... hahahax... so i went straight hm... i was so fucking tired... and my bag was superheavy wif the effing laptop and database hardcover book... and some additional things... i was hoping dear would pick me up and send me hm.. but poor him.. he's tired so i didnt provoke on that laa... well... nex week i got make up class.. and like fuck tml too... at 9.. told my classmate that i will be sick tml.. hahaha.. and their respond was, juz as they pridicted.. fuck laa.. i super hyperly tired.. but something strange is in me.. on regards to dear... hmm.. but as much as i dun wanna doubt him, i cant.. he is acting strangely... he haven call me yet... im like waiting fer his call frm 1 hr plus ago... i even called him and ask him y he never call me.. but he sae that he doing something ritre now and will call me later as soon as he can.. but how come he so bz until now rite?? and reply me so long.. hmmm.. i feel that he is hiding something frm me... but i got no guts to tell him so.. coz 'fraid that he may get boil up bout me being suspicious of him fer nothing... maybe he is helping his mom after the crisis that happen that make him leave werk early... haix... i donno laa eh... sometimes i feel he dont love me animore... but then when i feel like so, he will do something that will contradict my thinking laa... haixxxx... anw.. im super duper-ly tired... i think i wont wait up fer him animore.. i want to go to sleep....

nytez every one...

so true

2008-04-21T23:28:00.003+08:00

Below are ten signs that you are being needy. Remember you are trying to attract women, not turn them off. So if you suffer from any of these signs of neediness, you need to immediately stop those actions.

1. You just walked a woman to her door at the end of a date. Instead of kissing her, you ask her if she had a good time. Women are attracted to confident men. They don't want to have to tell you that they had a good time on a date... they want you to be secure enough in yourself to assume that they had a good time.

2. You called a woman last night and she has not yet called you back, so you either email her or call her again to ask her if she received your message. If you want to push her away, this is one of the best ways to get her to quickly run away from you.

3. You start texting a woman you just began dating five or six times a day. You are over-texting her. You don't need to check in every two hours. That's a sign of neediness and clingy behavior that turns women off.

4. You miss a call on your cell phone from a phone number that you don't recognize. You call the woman you're dating, and to whom you talked just two hours before, and ask, "Did you just call me?" This kind of behavior is going to push and scare her away.

5. You agree with everything the woman you're dating says. Women are not looking for a man who agrees with everything they say. Women want a man who challenges them and from whom they can learn. When a man agrees with everything a woman says, he is telling her that he'll do anything to have a relationship (which is another sign of being needy).

6. The woman you're dating is out for the evening with her friends. She promised to call you when she got home. It's getting late and you haven't heard from her. You just can't resist and you call her cell phone several times until she answers it. This is a sign of being needy and insecure. She's out with her friends... not out with another guy. Let her have some personal space and she'll respect you more.

7. You are too available. If you have plans with a friend, keep those plans even if the woman you're dating asks you to do something that night. Women don't want men who are like a 7-Eleven -- convenient and ready 24/7.

8. You try to please a woman all the time. I'm all about men doing nice things for women, but she has to earn it. Some men will let a woman walk all over them, and then continue to be a sponge and allow it over and over again. Stand up for yourself and she'll respect you more. Letting a woman walk all over you is a clear sign to her that you're needy.

9. Don't be afraid to challenge a woman. If you don't agree with something a woman says, don't just sit there and agree with her thinking it's what she wants. Women are looking for someone who is going to stimulate their mind... not bore them. Women are not turned on by men they can completely control.

10. Be the man! Have a plan and stick with it. Women like men who plan out evenings of fun. Don't always ask a woman what she wants to do. Listen to what she likes when you're having conversations with her, then come up with a fun plan that you will already know she'll like. A needy man will do whatever a woman wants. A man of action will create plans for what they will do. Being a man of action will lead her to find you a lot more attractive in the long run.

Women are attracted to men who are confident and real. Women want to feel like you need them... but only after you already have your own life, your own ambitions, and your own goals.

The moment a man starts getting too clingy, a woman will run for the hills. This is exactly like how you will pull back from a woman who becomes clingy and needy.

from 10 signs you're being needy (well jip was reading this and i find it intresting.. so i decided to share)

2nd week of school

2008-04-21T16:15:00.002+08:00

well.. in DDI lesson... haix.... broke like shite... no ciggie.. ho-hum... well... tonite will be pay nite!! hehehe... and tml off... hahahax... well.... i hope dear is not angry wif me... coz i promise him to call him after lunch but i forgot... went to lesson then now then i juz msg him.. brb.... need to do some stuff....

second day of school

2008-04-16T13:53:00.002+08:00

well.. currently in todays last class... only god noes what the hell he is mumbling about.. haix... i pity dear... coz due to me he havent eat.. well... im suppose to give him $$ for his breakfast and lunch todae.. but i forgot laa... so he have to wait fer me to finish sch then rush to him to get his food laa hor.. haix..... i better try to undertstand what the freaking hell he is trying to sae coz if fail this module i wont be able to move on next year... haix........ maybe later at werk i will update laa............ maybe only.. if not tml lor... bye....

(first time my post is super short.. hehe)

first day of school

2008-04-14T16:15:00.003+08:00

well.. now in lab class in sch.. hhahahax. ferst dae of sch lor...aniwae.. bot the last post... in regards of my nightmare was...

in my dream...
i "woke up" and bf told me that there is only one of his ex that cannot leave his side.. i was blur.. then he pointed to his kitchen.. (everything look similar) anw.. i saw a woman.. long hair.. white.. beautiful tho i cannot see the face.. but she was sliding on the celling top... welll.. that already shows me that it was something that is dead... well.. i shift to the back to bf but he was not there.. and the 'lady' rush towards me.. throwing everything to me... i was crying and screaming... i was so lost... then i was running.. then suddenly the environment was diffrent... i was so afraid... then i cant remember what happen... then i woke up... i woke bf up too.. but he juz open his eyes then went back to sleep.. so i dare not wake him up again.. or he will be so pissed off at me... so i lay back down and slide nearer to him and put his hand over me.. i cudnt go back to sleep.. and fer a few daes that nightmare haunt me.. im unsure y but it haunt me like hell.. maybe bcoz the environment was so real and the lady was super real in my dream.. haix....

okie... gtg... this lect is like fuck laa...

well... im back... im in another another class... well.. this lecturer is a lil stupid laa.. call all name all wrong.. hahahahx....

well... todae is the first dae of sch... like fuck laa... mondaes are the worst dae.. coz we end at 2030hrs.. like fuck rite??? haix.. hopefullie this class end earlie as the paper states... haix.. best dae of the week is tuesdae... coz no sch.. took off on that dae also.. and dear too... hahahax... well... hmm... what else eh... well.. me and dear are getting better each dae.. i sae so coz he we dont fight that much animore.. hehehe.. hmm. this lect is like shit lor.. programming plak... fuck... hmmm.. so surf net laa.... heheheh...

lalalalalalalalalalalalala!!!boring laa sial...

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!

strange..

2008-03-17T22:44:00.002+08:00

two things...
one is the strange one.. the second one actuallie i forgot oredi.. hehe... anw.... dun have much time.. dear juz reach hm.. so he is washing up..

the no one... i was suppose to meet boss todae at 2.. so i woke up early and got dress.. and head to dear's house... well.. as per normal.. reach there... complain i was hungry and sleepy... bla3.. i went to sleep.. the strange thing was my dream/nightmare..... it had been a longtime since i got that kind of dream... well.. in my dream, i was sleeping.. then i woke up and bf said this...

damn.. not going to continue the story... coz i feel uneasy.. will continue next time.. in the dae.. anw... dear break tube broke.... i mean its rubber.. so it tear?? wadever.. it got a large cut.. we bought some special tape to cover the cut fer the mean time.. until pay dae... but some how the break now... dun werk at all... i noe there is hand break but... the hand break dont werk good enuf... it takes a longer time to stop.. coz its like slow down onlie... so journey is very2 slow... haix... i need $$... had never been this broke before.... haix..

juz now, i and dear sat downstairs..... we had a nice nonsense chat... then we notice a man passed by... he look at us the sat at the table at the void deck.. dear and i was at the pavement with the bike.... well.. then it was time fer me to go up.. so i took my things from the box and he send me off laa.... normally he will send me at the lobby juz downstairs.. but then we realise that this man was watching us.. and as we walk to the lift, he got up and walk to the lift too... when u live in that environment so somewhat know who lives there... at noe their faces... and this face is very suspicious... coz i saw him wanting to light a stick of ciggie but then walk off when he saw us walk off laaa... so i was like hmmm... dear felt uneasy to let me go up wif him alone... soooo... he send me up..... then another man took the lift too.. that man stops at level 3, me at 7, and this suspicious man at 10.. the highest level... so i and dear look out at the parapet and didnt see the man walk at level 10.. so we were like hmmm.. dear send me off straight to my doorstep then he went off... hehehe...

i wonder how i did fer my xam... i dun feel good bout this xam.. haix..... i juz hope i will able to go to year two without repeating any of the modules... pray hard fer me!!!!!!

somehow you were on my mind again.......

bored like hell..

2008-03-11T19:23:00.002+08:00

well.... basically i dun want to story the thing bout werk.. tired of repeating it over and over and over again.. so bla3... i got suspended...
so im sitting at hm...and now i have to babysit nuryna... fucking piece of shit.. i hate it... she is as silly as ever... mischievous.. and all the crap that a terible two will do... urgh... she piss my freaking arse off.. and to make it worse, dear made me stay at hm..... fer two whole daes.... so i entertained myself wif the net..... movies after movies... puzzle book...(dun ask me since when i do puzzle book.. but i did...all due to the f-ing ph)hmmmm.. well....
currently me and dear is going out well.. had lots of silly jokes..... we shud be fine... but we are a lil money tight...... haix.... who can give me money fer free??? well if u can.. pls3 msn me..........

hmm... i dunno what to type..... i got nothing to sae... mayb cause im bored so my brain cells dun wanna werk..... haix... fine.... lets take out a random topic.. hmm...

nuryna... actuallie she juz entered my room being silly again... she was supose to be against me... but she came in and gave me a butterfly on a stick and make me repeat what she sae..
she: "akap thank you..." (sae thank you)
me: "ah.. thanks...."
she "salah!! akap THANK YOU!!!!"(wrong!! sae THANK YOU!!)
me:"thank you"
she:"thanks?"
me"thanks.................................."(with a face)
she"pandai pon... okie bye sayang.. see you..." (grin widely)
i was wtf?? where does this lil miss nonsense learn all that.. then i relise... frm us.. -_-"
tough luck.... haix.... vored.. forget the random tots... wanna find a new skin.... bye...

bye!!

shit

2008-03-01T23:42:00.003+08:00

okie.. i actuallie juz reach hm.. and soooooo god damn tired... cat been quite strange lately.. he will meow in the middle of the nite... when he normally dont... watever... hmm... extend till 11 todae.. so it was 11 to 11.. such a bad timing.. coz sat is a bz dae.. and to make it worse.... its like pay day for most of the ppl... so lots of calls.... yah lah,.. got money.. lazie to cook... so order pizza laa... and so comes all the nonsense ppl... whatever... frm 10 to 11... actuallie was not that bad.. coz..... i didnt reallie feel the diff.... and the things is.. by close to 11... the lines will all be cut off.. so that means no call.. so can juz go.., clock out and go.. hahahahaha.. so todae, my island was the most hard to handle.... hehehe.... and suprisingly... most of us are gerls... well.. we yap yap yap.. giggle giggle giggle... urmm... ect2.... hmm...

anwae... broke like shit... waiting fer my pay dae.. and now... will have to werk full for the next pay.. coz.... had lots of things to pay.. which is the bike... 128 fer the monthly installment... then 160 fer the rims.. very impt.. coz actuallie got something wrong with is alreadi.. due to the previous owner... well.. once it crack rite... the whole bike will jam... and if we were on the road... we will skidded.. and depends on our speed and its skills... and it will harm us laa kaan... hehehe... hmmm... then have to start to g fer lesson fer my license... have to give mom $$.. else she will give me a earful fer the rest of the mth.... i wanna go cut my hair... coz i feel so god damn messy now.. need to buy make up... my make up all finish oredie.... hmmmm... owe a treat to the previous owner(which we now realize that he is not that good man as we tot) have to pay fine that dear got frm illegal parking.... stupid gundu.. top up cash card.... top up both ez link.. juz in case.. and fer mcD purposes... keep aside at least 100 fer fuel fer the 2 weeks... 100 = zooming ard spore lots2 of time and waste it on nothing.. hehehe... i think all that will alreadie cost 400 pluss..... those are the things i have to pay plus the things we made a deal to pay together... fer his wants... not so sure.. but im sure we need at least 200 fer shopping... hehehe... and 50 fer eating at restaurant fer celebration... gtg.. he is hm.... got to tok to him then sleep... tml got to wake up early.. hopefully it does not coz.. i dun want the same thing happen as this morn... i was happy2 waking up late... and snoozing the alarm clock.. but it rain so heavy that i had to take the buz.... -_-".. that reminds me... to get 2 good rain coat fer both of us.. okie.... bye... will try to update as soon as possible....

i noe... i look like a maid.. wad to do.. juz finish washing the bike.. and i was permitted to bring it on a trial run while he watch the beauty of his bike...

is he the one???

2008-02-19T23:02:00.005+08:00

had been a very long time i have not updated... bz laa darlings!! and yes huda, i had finally update... well... basically tis will be a short post.. or lets sae until he call me... hmm... planed to update it earlier but... hahaha.. something took my attractio awae.. had my Object Oriented Program exam todae.. it was okie.. thanx to faritz who lend me the sample paper in the bus in the morning.. it help a whole lot.. coz the paper was very2 similar... had an argument wif dear.. well.. it started like this... i received a msg frm an unknown number.. and all it saes it pssst.. can u believe it?? juz pssst.. then i ask who it was.. ect...no reply.. dear got agitated, so we rang the person up alot of time.. no answer... then out of the blue mood, this morning this idiot replyed... he was botak.. so i told dear, and dear ask me to ask laa.. which botak.. coz frm what i can remember, the only botak i noe is arul... no offence bell... it juz happen to pop out my mind that botak = arul... hahax.. then his reply oishi.. bingo!! but why he suddenly msg me?? after one whole year advoiding me, suddenly he msg me that wae?? but fuck it wif him laa kaan... i told dear.. coz i didnt intend fer him to msg me or i dun wanna lie to him either... then he got pissed off with me!! i was like what the fuck kaaan!! firstly i didnt ask him to msg me.... i didnt meet him.. the last time i meet him was when i was still full heartedly werking at oishi.. but he avoid me... and to my suprise he is wif another gerl... nvm... since we were only frenz i dun care.. if that certain fren dun wan to tok to u, u would not want to irritate him more rite?? and the person is the opposite gender frm u.. so i decided to juz shut the crap up and let him be laa... if i were to keep on calling, messaging him, he will think im some mad woman crazie over him.. so what ever rite?? anw, dear was super pissed off at me... so i was half hearted to go fer exam... but alas, i went.. sat fer it.. and it was okie... then i beg dear to meet me... but no, dear was shouting at me.. scolding me.. i was so fucked up... i juz finish an exam which i noe i can do better... and to make it worse, i was alone.. i wanted to talk to someone.. to let some steam out... i scroll and scroll my tiny contact no in hp(i dun save many ppl no, coz later he check and call, i die)... sadly.. i got no one to tok to... so instead i went to the nearest blk sat there and cry and cry... i was so fucked up.. so messed up.. i dunno what to do.. i juz felt like going to the nearest shop and buy some beer and get drunk... (but didnt coz got no $$.. if i got mayb i had bought it oredi)... after sometime... when i managed to calm myself down, i msg dear to call me.... good and bad.... good is he did call.. bad was, "nak ape??!!" translation, what u want??!!... he yelled at me that... i was so hurt... but i ask force him to meet me... rush to werk place as soon as possible only to find out he went out oredi... bu manage to meet him... we didnt spoke a werd.. went to had lunch.. i got myself a fishball soup.. yes, juz fishball and soup... no mee nothing.. i was hungry.. tummy grumbling but no appetite... then i followed him to library... i beg him everything but he juz what me away... i cant help but cry quietly by him while he played his game... i felt like boxing him.. punch him.. slap him.. but if i do, what will happen next?? will it make it better or worse... so i kept on apologies to him tho its not my fault... (can help to get a gundu so jealous like min) and finally he is okie... but then now i stat to pounder... is he the one i wanted so much.. why am i making so much effort fer him?? i mean, i went to an extend to bring him to my parents... but why him?? i got better guys rite?? i will get better guys rite?? but y him?? i feel so stupid.... fer him, i cut my relationship wif mr kinky... mr kinky was so dear to me... to treat me well.. but mayb mr kinky treats me well coz he wanna win me.. but what will happen if we were together?? will he still remain the same?? then i got H... but im not really sure bout this H tho... he dun sound that intrested in me... or is it juz me??? furthermore, i pushes my limit juzto make him happy... i dun even get what im doing... i dont think this is love... or mayb juz a small percentage...but mainly its the feeling of fear... fear of losing him... i sacrifice alot fer him... a whole lot... from friends to time and everything between it... well... i ges this is fate.... if he isthe husband that GOD had arrange fer me.. then i accept it... but i do noe, i do love him... andi shud juz keep my mind free.....

damn.. gtg.. he called.. till then.. this is a secret between u and me.. coz dear dun noe bout this blog... bye!

a free saturdae..

2008-01-26T16:35:00.000+08:00

its like so long i never stay at home so freely.. well.. mom's nite tonite.. god damn tired seh... well... urmm.. i donno what to blog in.. got a built our own teddy frm him.. wohooo!! i wanted it so much seh.. well.. im happy wif dear now.. and i want my relationship wif dear to be sincere and pure...

well.. this is how i spent my dae todae... woke dear up at 9... then off to sleep... then by 11 plus i think i woke up and bath... nana wants maggie.. so i cooked fer her one packet.. which she ate a few fork full only... then i clean my room.. i actuallie clean my room!! * applause fer Nadhirah* and i throw all that i dun want... hahahahaha... but i give myself 1 week and my room will be a mess again.. hahaha... well... hmm... i thinking of changing my blogskin again... hahahahx... god damn bored laa.. i noe.. i have to do thinking skills project.. but later urh... time to relax okie.. i spent my last whole week wif sch okie.. wif projects and all.. glad that its all over now... left wif thinking skills thing... then study fer xam.. then year end break... i noe... its the starting of the year... but poly mah... poly year end is like that... so be it lah... hahahax...

byee.... want to look fer skins laa... will love dear with all my heart... and be sincere....

haix.. like shit..

2008-01-25T16:03:00.001+08:00

in sch lib.... wif jess and pei ling... damn... i juz finish my project... finally i can rest.. left one that is the thinking skills.. then i done!! DONE!! well.. execpt for the exam.... haix... i now feel like killing hre( no offence)... coz she was whining and whining... damn it... well.. going down to print all the things... then i want to hand in.. haix... gtg... want to print the things....

pizzahut craza

2008-01-22T10:25:00.001+08:00

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in school....

2008-01-21T09:22:00.000+08:00

well... in scool now... using kenneth lappy now... my bdae had past... haix... spent my dae wif dear.. first off i meet him at his house.. i went in without his awareness.. thinking that he is in the wash room, i hide behind the door.. then to my suprise, it was his father... oops... and instead he suprise me with a cake.. juz a small cake fer the two of us.. then we get ready and left to town by bus.. hahaha... we were hungry so we had brunch ferst... at PIZZA HUT wohoo!!... hahahahx... then to arcade and play games... hahhahhhax... funny xia... then we went to explanade... hahahax.. tired xia.. to marina square and chill out side and smoke2... then try to get a buz home.. damn... we had to transfer at bugis then took 12.. which is like fuck... slow and full like shit... dear got pissed off due to that... but then reach tampines jc... walk to t.mart... buy pizza hut again for dinner.... juz 10 sweet and spicy drumlets and hut's clasics breadsticks.... sent me home to call mom... then back to esso... to pick up bella and send him off... stay next door.. gossip wif bella and wanie... haix.. then was very tired so went home.. an a short conversation wif dear then off to lalala land!! hahahx.. boring eh... but what makes it fun is that i had the whole dae wif him... we spend time together which is very rare for us.. coz im schooling and he is werking... then we had only wednesday.... he pick me up frm sch then chill at hm or out to somewhere near... haix... nevertheless i heart him alot!!

gtg... doing project now... i want to eat and smoke!!!!! bye..

finally can smoke legally!! wohoo!!

formal thursday...

2008-01-18T00:45:00.001+08:00

well.. this is most of my class... only one disappear to donno where and that is Erwin and christian is not there too... didnt come sch laa that arsehule... we all were wearing formal for presentation but for that few mins its like graduation day sia... hahahahx.. gtg... very sleepy...

countdown: 2 more days!!

2008-01-17T10:33:00.001+08:00

currently in class...
wearing formal..
got presentation xia...
so lazie..
haix...
well..
looking for second hand bike...
or carry-on bike..
got ani info pls tag me hor...
haha..
dear want it laa..
if can he is more intrested in kawasaki krr...

hahahx..
advertisement siak...

okie.. anw.. now in cos..
been looking forward to this saturday...
which is my bdae...
woo-hoo...
finnally i'll be able to legally smoke in singapore...
hahahax.

hmmm...
xams coming....
something to note...
ferst feb cs common test....
haix...
very boring...

bored like shit siak...
well...
i actually got too much things to sae that i cant remember what i wanted to sae..
well...
gtg..
got to do some werk....

count down: 4 more days.

2008-01-15T15:29:00.000+08:00

quick post....
in class..
lots2 of projects..
damn it...
stress siak...
bz rite now...
byee

xian2..

2008-01-07T10:49:00.000+08:00

well... currently using pei ling lappy.... haix... well.. now having a conflict wig dear.. well.. my fault... truly my fault.. seriously... shit xia.. and now i need $$.... haix.... wont state the conflict in here... if u really want to noe then approch me laa... haiyo... then if i want to tell then i tell.. dun be kaypo laa...haix...

anw... sch will end soon... then i had to head to bugis street to exchange abg jas pants at spade... then off to werk.. haix.... well... what shud i doo??

anw...

COUNTDOWN!!!! 12 MORE DAYS!!!!!!! to my birthday!!! hehehehe...

countdown 16 more days

2008-01-03T21:35:00.000+08:00

has not been fathfully updating for weeks... lots of things to update... hmm.. im currently doing a countdown... to my 18th birthday... i have a feeling its a good one...

happy new year... i know im a little bit late.. cant help it.. been bz werk mostly.. and now that sch started, i'll be more bz.. xam and major papers are coming... damn... but i'll have to make it.. mom allow me to get a weekend werk with a condition... that is to do well in school... so i cant afford to fail... my plan for week 12( that is this week) to week 16(start of xams)..
week 12 - finish cs projects and database projects...
week 13 - finish oopp project and start studying for dmd..
week 14 - be done with elective project and last week of werk..
week 15 - pause werk until xam over and start studying xam modules...
week 16 - brush up an all the modules and get prepared with xams...
yepz... that is my plan.. simple one only... hopefully i follow it... anw.. did my selection for next sem's...
first choice - cost accounting
second choice - introduction of entrepreneurship
third choice - innovations and technology (i think that is the module name)
fourth choice - introduction of study of china and India
fifth choice - introduction of marketing
sixth choice - business mandarin
yah.. i actually quite interested in the last choice since this is singapore and mandarin is so important... but afraid that i cannot cope with it.. and accounting is so maths so i hope its simple... hmm

dear gave me a keychain engraved with our picture.. but somewhere i lost it the day before yest... haix... didnt have the heart to tell him.. shit man... well... it was his ferst anni prezzie for me.. haw should i tell him.. its not even half a mth yet an i lost it.. he spoend like 30 plus on it... he will sure get pissed off at me.. well.. im happy with him.. though some ppl sae that he is actually controlling me.. but some how i feel better when he control me.. i feel much more safer... i trust him so much... and i can feel that im serious abt this relationship too...

year 2007
january
first real werk... oishi japanese pizza... attached to u noe hu. (how i drag to type that out and admit i was ever once wif him)..
febuary
i got my 'o' lvl result.. 16 pts.... werk werk werk...
march
sis birthday... so faithful at werk... medical check-up fer poly
april
got internet connection at hm.. get lappy... starts school... new sch new classmate.. new environment... broke off wif that u noe hu... had to stop werking......
may
well.. attched to hmm..... got quite pissed off wif pei ling due to her u noe what.. hahaha... shhhh.. thomson outlet...
june
100th post... the love fer the werd begot.. hahahaha.. such a werd... hahah ..
july
got a tamagotchi.. and it died every time i name it kinky.. hahahax... i was to attached to tamagotchi.., how childish i was...
my mr kinky............
august
dont worry be happy
projects projects...
the start of the end...
september
fasting month... welcome nabeel aka sharizuan( btol eh eja mcm gitu?? correct me if wrong) result is out... gpa - 2.9333.... hello to e65!!
october
bell's bdae... hari raya... new sem!! new modules...
november
hello darling!! new job... pizza hut.. attached to hehe... e65 spoilt!! repair at 85 bucks...
december
with dear... he meet my parents... was scary but ended up not bad at all... our first mth together falls on the 22nd...

brb...

back frm batam

2007-12-24T22:30:00.000+08:00

we wish u a merry Christmas!!

well.. i left bf in spore fer 3days and 2nites.. went batam wif family... hmm... well.. had shop2... was fun.. lazie laa want to story2.. so juz upload the pic laa eh... mayb sis will story2... then u read there onli laa eh...
on the way in the ferry(me and abang(unintentionally))

bored like shit laa...

me and ramona camwhoring

yea.. the two ppl behind xtra again...

sea breaze

me mia and ramona( and the irritating sea breeze)

sis and her meows(such an environment to take picture at)

sis and me(bored shit and dunno where to go.. and tired like fuck)

bored kaan

in the karaoke box(yes box in the mall)

sis and her cacat had(dier mmg cacat pon.. dier mmg cacat)

cacat nyer kakak ku

sis and me.. (wif my specx)

nana and sis(count how many circle sis have in her face)
nana ugly face
lawa laa tu......
sis and her new specx
which ends our trip.... =p

anw.... while updating pic i saw some pics.. might as well upload oso laa kan.. fer no reason....

me at his house
wan, me , him, and eddy
eddy,wan, him, me
sis an me wishing u merry xmas...

i miz u tao...

the most gundu dae ever...

2007-12-13T18:25:00.000+08:00

well... i woke up at 7 plus.., got ready everything and left hm at 8.30... was actuallie late to meet him.. but nvm... went to his house.. get dress and everything... and we were late fer werk.. not reallie late as in late.. but we were hungry and tot wanna eat ferst.. but got no time.. so we bought take awae frm mac... late fer brefing... so i was lost on the gift part.. nvm.. tml werk can go fer the brefing again... that wasnt the gunduu part.. the gunduu part was i wasnt suppose to werk todae... i tot i was werking when i check the shec laz sun... but u think i see wrongly or they chg the shec...anw... tini put me to werk since i was there... werk until 3... had 4 person conference call with the call masters... tot crap.. irshada got a total of 2 prank callers when i left... not sure after i left got samore not.. hahahahahahx... and he sent me to the busstop to sch.. and this is another gunduu part.. well mayb some of u noe it alreadi but i juz sae it out laa eh... my exam paper was yest and not todae... and instead i came todae instead of yest.. wtf... call my fren confidently... hahahahx... he scold me all the gundu werd all the stupid werd.. hahahahhax.. i donno i wanna cry not.. the exam is 30 percent leh!!! haix... and noe wan ask me to keep on calling the lect... i bo pian oredi... so i left fer home.. and not animore "i hope" to get good marks fer the other 70 percent.. its " i must".... so xian... nvm laa... let the past be the past....

anw... a few daes ago(that is on pay day), dear(not the same dear animore) bought psp! yay!! at onli 100... his fren sold it to him laa.. but still... its cheap... but non of the csc agents noe bout it... its a secret yaa.. so keep quiet... we downloaded games songs and pic into it... i got 2 games.. and he got 4 games... and one of the game is inside alreadi... hahahhaax... and i playing the cd game tooo.... the cd one is his fren gave together wif it... its monster hunter... got stuck.. okie fine. its not stuck... im suck and tired of dying over and over again.. its not im weak okie.. its the wildboar... its too strong.. hahahha.. bluek.. and also neopets adventure.. mind u... it not at all same with the one u ppl play online okie... and also one more game that is the spongebob.. almost finishing.. that is a boring game laa eh... his game i oso can play.. hahahax.. duh guyz game laa.. the soccer, bike and car racing... he also got this 50cent game... not the cost of the game.. its the artist... bang2 game laaa... then the rest i didnt disturb laa... hahah... now its with me... i get to play it most of the time.. hehehehe.. its like as if he buy fer me.. when the psp is suppose to b wif him and when im over at his house, i conquer the psp... then i will bring hm.. and he have the psp, he will be werking the whole dae or have to spend the whole dae wif me.. hahahahaha... kecian dier.. nvm laa.. okie2 gtg.. need to put in songs fer him....

my ram is bigger now!!! its 1.49GB... heheheheh... but still, i have to re-format this effing lappy...

i lost my fren fer him... so i wont lose him, or it will only be vain to lost 4 of my frens and 1 best fern fer someone, and ended up fer nothing... to the people that i lost... im so sorry...

im in deep shit....

2007-12-07T15:39:00.001+08:00

well... i was attached since the 22nd... but the day b4 yest he found out bout dear.... the trouble began... to summarizes it all... i settle it with him areadi.. but its wif dear that im having trouble... i donno what to do....
when i got feeling fer lokman... hint to him... he sae i and him cannot be together... then i was disappointed.... so i took sometime off him and chg myself...t hen when i got my heart fixed alreadi... i decided that i had to move on... before i started to fall back to him.. fall back to square 1... then when i did, he said like this... he told me, i can get a guy.. everything... as much as i dun want to leave him... he keep on insisting that we cannot be together... i fix my heart and tell my self we are juz frenz... we are juz frenz... i cudnt do it but i had to... so i left... and wan came to the picture... he was okie and everything... i accepted him... in fact i told mom bout wan.. a lil only.. still... im not attached wif dear... i have the right to accept or decline anione at my own will... but now dear is making it hard fer me... i donno... i really donno... help pls!!!

versus

Happy 200th post!!

2007-12-05T10:25:00.000+08:00

well.. i saw this was the200 th post, so i want to celebrate it laa.. after 1 year plus using this blog, i finally managed to reach the 200 post.. haix... well.. im having cm1 lesson now.. haix.. very boring... my matrices quiz was good.. i got A for it.. hahahhahahax.... well... it was a hard werk pay off... luckly fer me that i study add maths laz year... and now i can bore my ass to shyte and sleep and slack.. then do the papers with cofindent... happy2...

well.... will be going to braddell later.. after sch.. go his house.. and slack... i hint mom a lil bout him laz nite... her reaction was not bad... in fact she was like, okie... as long as its not one of them frm downstairs and he is a no nonsense guy, she will be okie... hahahax... somehow i felt glad that i mom noe something bout him... somehow i felt like bring him home to her... at least she cud trust me now... i can go out and she dun have to worry coz she noe i will be with him... and she will not make noise bout me loitering downstairs... ect ect... quite glad eh... but still there is still a small part of me being not ready.. mayb mom will make a lot of noise at me coz im still schooling and its not time fer me to be in a such a steady relationship... i donno laa.. but im am quite serious with him.. i think so... somehow im am not being me... or this is me... the real serious me... then what happen to the other time serious me??? haix... i donno... i dont even noe my self now.. okie2.. gtg.... time almost up...

DAMN IT

2007-12-05T07:15:00.000+08:00

currently at home getting ready to go to sch... damn the digital clock in my room.. it shows a timing that is one hour faster than the actual time.. haix... how could this be?? i mean.. mom wokr me up in the morning juz now.. i look at the watch without remembering that it is fast... it shows 0750.. so that means im late oredi laa.. haix.. but then while bathing, it struck me... i was damn early.. so now, i relax2 get dress and see, i managed to blog!!! hehhehehe... okie2.. gtg.. want to put on some make up....

Close to one week..

2007-11-28T09:46:00.000+08:00

well... i dun want to sae what the close to one week.. anw... in cmaths class.. boring.. i should learn to switch off lappy coz it will get damaged.. not that it is not damaged, it will get worst.. haix... well.. im werking on the weekends only fer this week.. five to ten on both days... damn... im sooo soo sleepy.. anw updates.. short one...

mondae..
went out wif him... well.. we slack then went town.. happy2.. took neoprint.. after so long not entering such place i was a okie... but sadly... i broke my fone.. its still werking.. but the lcd cracked... at the lower bottom left of the screen.. it is quite bad.. i want to send fer repair.. but if it cost $$ i will cry.. it will be very xpensive... haix....

todae..
my make up is bad todae.. very messy.. but what ever laa... no mood.. haix... common test coming.. shit... 2 papers one on monday( CMaths 1100 to 1230...) and on wed (DMD 1630 to 1800...) okie2 laa... gtg...

muaackx..
will u stay by me all the time???

in cm1

2007-11-21T10:31:00.000+08:00

well.. i gez the only time i have to update is in class laa.. well.. werking todae... but 5 to 11 laa.. hopefully he help me to finish early... haix... will be taking cab todae.. im prepared.. i hope im prepared... haix... studying matrices now... B-O-R-I-N-G!!! haix.. asl plak tak de netwerk...

mood now: not good.

2007-11-20T15:22:00.000+08:00

well.. as u can see.. im not in the mood now.. haix.. dunno y... mayb it because its the time of the month.. donno laa.. haix.. what shud i do eh... well.. he msg me juz now... i gez we will be toking tonite... i gez so... haix.. now having oopp... haix.... daa laa.. i got no mood...

In Computing Mathematics

2007-11-20T10:55:00.000+08:00

well.. it had been long time since i last updated.. well.. i had missed lots of maths lesson that when i reach this class and i dont understand anything.. well.. this is week six.. so that means 2 more weeks to common test.. damn.. and i dont noe what is happening.. in fact i dont even noe which module will be having tests... haix... anw... i had juz graduated frm PH yesterday... so tml will be the ferst real working day for me in PH.. well.. im not nervous or aniting... well.. shud tell u bout my traning..
had a 2 days class.. with nadia... hahah.. then came my first buddy day... my buddy was adam... he was quite shock when i said i wud prefer do the toking... and also the way i talk to the customers.. hahahahax.. and there is a cute guy sitting with aizan... who was my batch and was sitting beside me...
second day was a saturday... hahaha... then it happen that nadia put the cute guy to be with me... hahaha... well.. i talk like normal... but he was like shy2... hahahahx.. well.. he was not helping me... gunduuu... so i try what ever i can.. when i wasnt sure, i juz nod to him then he nod back.. donno if he was listening to me or not.. but by luck it is correct... hahahax... anw... when it was over, he commented laa... pape call urh.. i was like okie.. then my brain started to function... i dont even have his number.. wth.. then gave him my number... then went off... well... yesterdae was my graduation day... i chatted with bell.. hahahax... then break we went to smoke.. got to noe this friendly guy... (and now i realise it, he got the same name.) riduwan... hahahahx.. well.. able to click to him.. hahahax... and there were some ite guys... only one was good looking.. the rest was trying to get my number laa.. i still stick to my rule.... well.. clocked out and off we go.. was kinda late.. coz mom dun noe im werking... then at the lobby, he was standing there... i tot mayb i cud xchange a word or two.. but the guy infront of me went straight to him and tok to him.. so i was like, okieeeeeee... i said bye then he like want dun want to reply like that... so i was like okie... damn laa.. then laz night when i wasnt in any mood at all, he called me... but we had a very long chat.. ard 3 hours... hahahx.. tok2.. he told me laa.. he was intrested with me laa.. then he was waiting fer me after graduation... hahahax... but he onli said bye.. that and was sad laah.. hahahx... not my fault laa... hahahx.. so we tok2 until 3 plus.. then he hanged up the fone and i went to bed after using the net laa... duh... well... woke up early fer sch.. but late fer lokman urh.. damn... he is going to kill me... second time in a row seh.. haix... damn damn.. hahahahx..

well.. penat urh bobal.. hmm... someone(Aaron) juz make me lose mood to update and blog... compo dier kate... kelakar kape boy..hahahhahax.. damn.. no mood laa.. but i dun wanna listen to lily... boring urh.. hahahx.. fine... i dun understand... haix.. go hm muz download her powerpt and study.. i noe week 8 got cm1 common test.. hopefully i can do good.. can pass with flying colours..

till next time,
i will take my leave here..
word and footprint left by..
ADEQ...

muaackx to dear who is not reading this at all...
and hugs to my new friends...
BYE!!

sleepy

2007-11-14T23:51:00.000+08:00

well.. currently toking over the fone...
went out wif dear to pp
hehehe...
had dinner then walk ard...
then took buz....
hehehe

anw...
i started werk....
hahaha...
at ph...
i hate codes...

muaackx...

haix

2007-11-09T17:00:00.000+08:00

ako stress!! mcm sial... haix....

muahahahhahahahahaha hahahahahahahahahahaha hahahahaha ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha ahahahah

anw... in class.. df.. the lect so confident wif me.. like i noe what to do like that.. hahaha..
gtg laa.. brg lecey seh!!!

3 more daes..

2007-11-08T15:45:00.000+08:00

you may be wondering what will be happening in 3 days..
well..
it got nothing to do with u...( i think)
but anw, its mother's birthday... hahahax..
and im broke like shit....
i donno what to get fer mother...
ans i noe sis is broke too...
haix...

anw...
im currently at nekx house...
babysitting...
sis is at werk..
so nana is here with me...
and there is mia..( good thing, coz nana loves her)
mona... someone where nana can complain to( other than me)
and there is nabeel... ( no problem fer me)
then there is amir... and saiful.. ( there are like not here.. coz they mind their own business)
nekx went fer deepavali wif her fren..
so cik mila is here to be the adult..
together wif her husband...
and the man of the house...
well..
cik mila is here to take care of nabeel...
but i noe hte three adults will sleep when nabeel sleep...
so im in charge wif the girls..
which is easy...
juz hope nana is in a good mood...
haix...
she juz sleep...
so easy fer me to surf the net...
urmm...
todae's meal is ............................... bone steak .........................
hahahahx
yum2..
cik mila cook but not like the wae she used to cook...
normally its hot and spicy...
but todae nekx dun wanna it to be hot coz mia cannot eat too spicy stuff..
so its B-O-R-I-N-G..
actuallie kaan..
i ate alreadie..
but thinking bout the food again, makes me wanna eat again...
hahahax...

anw....
bro-in-law, is still pain in the ass...
his birthdae was the dae b4 yest..
or even b4 that..
i cannot remember...
he expect nana and sis come and surprise him...
like he is a lil boy...
he called sis..
and want sis to bring nana down...
it was close to 11 pm for god sake..
ish...
anw...
we will never noe wat he will do to nana or sis...
looking back to one incident in the past...
anw...
i juz finish reading sis's blog... darn..
i feel so xian...
haix...
but it was a lil funnie tho...
i think kaan...
i wanna eat AGAIN.. (shit.. i will grow fat) and the out to smoke..
back to sleep...
tired laah...

MUAACKX...

in CM1 tutorial

2007-10-31T10:35:00.000+08:00

well.. now having the idiotic set lesson.. so boring.. hahahhax.. well... i had been wnating to sae about the laz sat outing.. but didnt get the time.. hahaha... well.. i went out wif sis and nana.. we went out to town... to cut it short, we saw a flee market... and bought 6 tops, and one pants and in total it cost her $26... wel.. i got no money.. so she treat me a tee and a long sleeve top.... i will update the pictures soon..

well.... yesterdae i went to meet din.. at west mall... we slack wif him fren and his fren niece... then we took the cab home.. two location.. ferst his house.. then he left me $26.. (i now began to notice, $26 bucks) well.. then the cab continue to my house... sis called me, to inform me that she will be reaching hm late.. anw.. i was alone.. hogging over the fone.. when she reach hm... then nekx call... nana was throwing tantrum... so i and my sis rush there by cab... we pack our things, and left... and we sleep there... so i came to sch frm there todae... hahaha.. so after sch i went back there... and ard 7 dear pick me up to send me home.. i decided to go home wif the reason of my things at hm.... well... i took the thing home.. slack wif hym at tamp mart... so we were slacking at 348.. then dear gave me a necklace...(i will upload the pic soon) i wanted to look at the mirror.. so i walk to the lorong laa.. and there i saw sun.. and burn.. i was like sun.. then look further.. and my tots went shit kit.. run.. but my feet were rooted to the ground.. i think sun saw my reaction and he called me to tok to me.. and then i walk to dear.. burn was calling2 me.. i was like shit.. told dear he was there... sun asked me to tok to burn coz he is tired of toking to him.. wif no choices left, i went to tok to him.. i keep on saeing i donno.. and all that is related to the werd.. i was like damn... he spoilt my dae.. i mean my night... i was happy that dear gave me a necklace and all... but then there he was trying to get my simpathy... damn seh.. well.. i told him i gg out with dear so i need ot rush... so i tok to dear.. rush up to get my things and left to nekx laa.. got no where to go.. coz i noe if i stay there he will come up and i will die... ako nie daa pengecut.. haix.. brb...

well.. my lesson will end soon.. and im bored like shit... damn.. well.. i'll be reaching nekx house early todae... hmm.. i think todae i wanna sleep at home...

DAMN.. GTG... CONTINUE SOON...

muaackx...

updates

2007-10-27T12:13:00.000+08:00

well.. i woke up late todae.. but luckily dear woke up himself to go to werk.. im so sorry..anw... time to update...
yesterdae...
went to sch in formal wear.. and i brought laptop in hand.. looks like business women.. hahahahx.. christian call me businessman selling hp.. damn him.. here are the pictures i took..

then sis is fighting wif kit.. haix.. so laz night was heatic.. wif mom and everything... lets forget about that.. hmm...

thursday...
dear picked me up frm sch.. we went to bugis to get bella prezzie together... we can never shop together.. coz i will go fer something black something dark and he will go fer something white something bright.. hahax.. so we will argue on which top to get.. what colour to buy fer bella.. it went like this...
me: i like the black one..
him: no the white one looks nicer..
me:no... the black one laa.. can see the pattern clearly...
him: too dark laa.. nanti panas kaan..
me: kan itam lagi lawaaa..
him: daa laa.. u dok diam2.. nex time go shopping dont bring u.. all u pick is black red black..
me: i like the colour mah..
him: dok diam2..
me: hmph...
anw.. it was bella bdae as i had said..

in sch.. kenneth took my picture... wif my fone.. jakon katekan..

weds..
went to survey for prezzie.. coz no money.. my money was wif dear... so i went to configure laptop at sch.. then off to bugis.. was so so tired.. didnt sleep the night before.. was helping bella wif her chem.. we stayed up till time to go sch.. anw.. i saw the watch and fell in love with it.. i want the red or black one. i think i take red.. anw.. then i went to vivo.. i was going to meet didi at habour front.. saw gee and ait.. bella sch mate.. gee asked me bella how many mth oredi.. so i told her that she gave birth alreadi and everything.. we ate at LJ then smoke.. then i sent them off to mrt stn.. slack up stairs at the sky park.. made a fren wif this girl.. she was taking o-lvl this year too.. so i gave her some pointers.. and we xchange afew werds.. and then didi had arrived so i had to leave.. i didnt get to noe her name... anw.. then didi brought me to a park near by.. then left.. to labrador park.. slack there.. and sent me home..

tuesdae..
took buz home... was a boring dae.. dear went back to reservice.. sao-sin wanted to pick me up... bluek.. ajak2 ayam.. pantat nyer budak.. cik mila's(bella mother) bdae.. this is her cake wanie and bella bought..

mondae..
dear sent me to sch.. it was raining.. so when i enter lecture room i was wet.. and cold.. and late too.. my classmate saw me wet and noe oredi that i took bike to sch.. damn... they can read me like a book seh.. anw finish sch early.. so dear pick me up.. we went out.. then he had to go.. he book a chalet fer his fren.. so he had to check-in.. so he sent me home early.. then yan ask me to slack together.. i went to meet him..hahahax.. we went to pasir ris park.. went to up the tower.. tok crap.. hahah.. he is full of crap seh... slack until night.. and went home...

anw.. plan fer todae..
to go out.. sis tot wanna go vivo.. tapi rase2tak jadi lor.. but comferm klur... haix..

with love,

"to be happy some times we have to be selfish....."

in e learning??

2007-10-26T15:36:00.000+08:00

now in class laa.. using the lab computer... is suppose to do qiut.. took me 3 attempt to pass it.. haix.. this sux... sharon lost her fone in sch juz now.. poor thing.. haix...

having no frenz is better than having them but feel uncomfortable with them..

gtg... bye...

in lecture room..

2007-10-25T10:14:00.000+08:00

now in lecture room.. finally i bring this heavy laptop and use it in sch.. gosh... well.. todae i brought alot of things.. my heavy laptop.. and my helmet.. the two bulky thing to sch... gosh.. well.. im still tired although i sleep tru the night... woke up and i got 5 miss call... 3 frm bella, 2 frm dear.. and msgs... hahahahx,.. i was really tired.. haix... okie.. this apek ask us to do alot of things.. haix... bye!!!!

oh yes.. before i go,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NURUL ATIQAH BINTE ZULKILEI!!
daa besar eh bell... ahahhax... i got u a prezzie tao.. share wif wanie and kinky.. heheheheh.. muaackx..

okie... thats it.. gtg..

burning the midnight oil

2007-10-24T04:39:00.000+08:00

yes.. its 0440hr.., ypez the morning.. had a 5 minutes short nap while bella use the laptop.. and now both of us are still up.. im helping her studying chem.. now she is at chapter 14 of the book.. we started from chapter one.. with the starting her on her own.. need to do math homewerk okie.. then help her.. and now i left her alone again.. hahahahx.. dhe is on the chapter redox laa.. i was sleeping in class when my teacher was foing that topic.. so i donno.. but i try to help her if i can.. hahahax.. well to tell u the truth im quite sleepy right now.. so im trying to keep my mind ocupied so i wont get bored and lie down.. and start to doze off.. i got to get ready in ard 1hr and a half time.. need to go to sch.. configure laptop to sch netwerk so by tutorial later i can start using it.. haix.. comferm doze off in the buz..

hmm.. tomorrow is bella's birthday.. omg!! i donno what to get for her... gosh.. i will be going shopping tml.. to search fer her prezzie.. hopefullie the money dear transfer to me will be enuf.. prepaid low again.. and im stuck for money.. and tml is bella's chem o lvl paper... good luck to her( hahaha.. she is actuallie juz beside me) i'll will be rushing back to tamp to meet her at 12 and accompany her to tiong bahru.. she will be having her paper there.. haix... im god damn worn off... haix...

okie2.. to keep my mind active, i will be changing my blogskin again.. urmm.. hopefullie there is nice skins out there...

roger and out..

hey there!!

2007-10-21T22:39:00.000+08:00

on second dae of raya i sae him.. then yester dae(to consider 3rd outing for raya) i saw him again.. then todae again.. omg.. ferst is at his house.. then mine and aunt... then at adik's house.. hehehe... okie2.. i noe he is an effing cuzzie of mine.. but hey.. not my fault for him to be so cute.. and his mother is trying to play match making with both of us.. hahahah..
anw, went to 4 house todae.. ferst to bella's.. yes... nex door.. then to open house at simei then to woodlands.. adik's house.. and saw him.. and then hougang tok "muda's" house.. ahahhaha.. that is what he make nuryna call her aniwae... well.. todae had been a silent dae fer my hp.. wonder y? hmmmm..
dear woke me up after werk in the morning.. ask him to wake me up... then at 12 i called him.. went to get my ciggie.. ate wif nuryna.. slack tim mother side came... and went raya nex door.. well.. what to do... lots of slacking and chilling done... bored shit.. tml sch again.. im kinda hoping dear wud send me to sch tml.. then pick me up.. well.. he planed for us to watch movie together after sch tml.. but donno laa eh.. he seems awfully tired these dae... haix.. jak on the fone now.. was hoping that it was dear.. but not... haix.. jak is kinda iritating.. urgh.. getting on my nerves... urgh... bye......

first week of raya is over

2007-10-20T17:05:00.001+08:00

well... todae is the atart of the second week of raya.. and ferst week of school is over... well.. i promised to meet yan to go out and chill together.. but mom wanna go raya.. so it was canceled... omg.. gtg.. ppl juz come over.. shit.. its that cute cuzzie of mine.. hehehehehe. so god damn cute...

okie2.. im back.. went raye wif family.. saw him at aunt house again.. so cute!!! omfg!! ;p anw... went for raya.. wore this kebaya that was mine for a laz year.. that time it was totally lose... mom had to make some alteration to it so that i can wear it nicely.. but then this year, i cud hardly breathe in it.. my breast is pressed to my body.. god.. and food is served in every house.. so i vas jam packed.. damn.. so fat oredi.. haix.. shit.. got samore ppl come..

well.. ppl all left oredi.. sis juz reached hm.. i want ciggie.. but dun have.. haix.. well.. lots of things happened to my life recently.. esp on guyz... haix.. nvm laa.. no time to tok now.. so sleepy oredi.. want to give myself a rest... dear will be waking me up early in the morning..

will be meeting dear on mondae.. so excited... and yan, im am so so sorry..

ferst post in sch

2007-10-17T13:25:00.001+08:00

so far sch sux.. i mean need to bring laptop to sch.. wtf seh... and need to get an expensive software wich cost $88... shit seh.. mom will yell.. haix.. anw.. in my ferst lab lesson.. my together wif class and Dr tie.. hahahx.. he ao funny.. well... i finnish this lesson and sch at 3.. damn... hmmm.. i donno where to go seh.. batt is low... hmm.. and that bloody fucker haven call me for more than 96 hours.. if he call me and ask me to go back to him i wil scream and shout at him.. and.. well.. im starting my irritating me again.. haix.. and i think i noe y.. hahahax.. okie.. this lect is very sharp.. tho he is old but sharp like shit.. so i gtg... i be updating soon... hahahax.. bye..

dear is off.. and i miss him...

pictures

2007-10-14T00:56:00.001+08:00

Selamat hari raya people!!

2007-10-13T19:29:00.000+08:00

okie2.. i noe it had been a long time...
i kept on procrastinating and todae is already hari raya..
hehehe..
well..
currently over at nekx..
totally bored..
the longest time for my family to get dress ect for raya..
we took close to 3 hours for all of us to bath, get dress, make up(fer girls), style up our hair and bro in law to take his pants that was left here...
hahaha
anw..
my color todae is black..
so i look like as if i wanna go mourning instead of raya..
hahaha..
and stand beside sis..
it make me look like i really going for mourning and she going for raya..
coz she wore white..
well.. wtf anw..
had been fasting full..
except for the last 2 daes..
which was a big waste..
but not my fault..
i cannot do aniting bout it...
well..
a lot of ppl is here already...
so urgh..
get back soon...

my tots

2007-10-02T00:53:00.000+08:00

well.. i went to illa, wanie and bella blog.. come to think of it.. its a sad thing... we got the up most religious ppl in our familie tree(to us it is up most laa) and we the four ppl are alwaes the one giving trouble all the time.. i mean, after kak yana, hu had keep her profile low now... we are alwaes the one being gossiped ard.. okie.. let me give a true senario.. the three mothers(mother, cik mila and cik lina) alwaes will tok to each other.. and i notice in all their convo, it alwae include at least one of us.. haix.. mother will go adeq pimpin tgn ngan jantan lain.. adeq is being mischevious.. iqah preggie.. iqah skiped sch... wanie tak alek rumah.. wanie jumpe/bwk alek jantan.. illa preggie.. illa klur mlm2.. diorg isap rkk.. diorg pemalas.. diorg tak nak kemas umaa.. diorg tak nak dengar kate.. i mean what the fuck??? are we the one alive in this werld.. when it comes to other cuzzie, stories move in slow.. when it come to us.. whoa.. cpt.. the nex thing we knew, all of them noe.. haix.. we tried our best to get to their side.. and all they see is the bad side... sometimes... i feel like giving up.. i juz feel like running awae.. but if i do that then what will my future become?? its bad enough like this.. i juz hope they can understand us.. and we can understand them.. i donno.. i wrote lots of letters telling my feelings to explain to mom y am i like this.. but she never get it.. i didnt give her.. coz when im done with it, its either i fell asleep crying, or chicken out, or got even angrier coz of what mom said..

i was cleaning my closet.. i folded all my clothes.. and under all the clothes, i found a letter.. a piece of letter i wrote.. it as 8 daes before i turn 17.. i read it and i cried.. it was a letter to tell mom how hurt i am.. she called me a useless prostitude.. alwaes going out selling my body.. omg!! and at the end of the letter this is what i wrote,"my one and only birthdae wish is to get some freedom and be like any other normal 17 year old teenage girl.. but then again.. i doubt so.. coz that will never happen....."
and yes its true.. i did get a lil more freedom.. coz im in poly, and poly sch ends late and it takes 1hr plus to get hm.. and my reason of coming hm late is sch end late.. its still same as in sec sch.. the latest i can get home then was 6 pm.. and i wud tell mom i got sch and ends late.. which is fake.. and now, i have to be back by 8.. and i wud tell mom i got sch and sch ends late.. which is most of the time is fake too.. do it is the same.. haix...
why does sis get to enjoy her 15 and 16 years old life and i got stuck with unsaid curfews?? coz if i were to come home late, it means i meeting guys.. and when i meets guy i will fuck.. and when i fuck i will come home preggie.. that is mom's wae of ideology.. haix.. and now, mom thinks her ideology is true coz bella got preggie too.. yayness to her..

now i understand why i dont reallie care what course i take or what job i take.. coz mom will not like what i want.. and to please her, i will do what she like.. like fer instance, i took multimedia course and make the best out of it.. i took a maths coz mom sae i am good at maths and she like that subject.. and "yay" i got a maths.. i never had a sae in what i want.. and when i got a maths and failed the subject she sae i am useless.. and i shud not take a maths in the first place.. if i were able to make my own decision i will able to take d&t or pure bio or something.. but hey.. i did my best in a maths and yay i passed it in the end.. which mom sae i will never.. when i passed, all she sae is, "okie.. bagoz.. nanti besok ibu belanja adeq" which never happens.. and recently i passed my first sem exams, she saes" okie.. u can do better.. pegi layan nuryna" i was like what.. ferst she doubt me.. the that is all.. no werds of congratulations?? when sis improved her maths in pri sch.. which the result still fail, she buy her things.. she congratulate her.. wow.. i am amazed..

i remembered crying on the fone with this special someone.. he encouraged me.. saeing that every teenager will go tru this.. he encouraged me to stay strong.. all his werds were fresh in my memory.. and hey.. this is not bad.. i mean some ppl get worse then me.. aniwae.. i got too much carried awae.. i went tru typing all this but my main motive is to sae this to the other three of us...

listen up guys...
to bella: at least u realise what u have done.. and your mom is strong.. dun be sad that she regret she have u.. coz u realise and try to put ur best foot forward.. coz there is someone worse than u.. that is siti.. he make donno how manie gerls preggie and still dont realise his wrong.. and to make it worse she try to tok to him, he never listen.. he got tagging, tattoos, and all.. but still sae his mother is wrong.. and even worse, he dun even respect her.. even after trying to werk hard fer her familie and make the best fer every one.. he and his sister dun even appreciate it... and if u need someone, we(okie at least i) will be there.. to listen to u.. to cry with u.. to laugh and crap it with u.. and if u donno how to sae it.. well, we can msn, or tok tru blogs or tag boards.. or we can write letters.. like we used too..

to wanie: ye.. its alwae the malay ppl... but if you want to do ur part, then try to help one of those brainless ppl.. and maybe they realise it.. and soon they will help another one.. the that another one will hep another one.. ect.. and yes.. good idea to get married soon.. but when u do, dun ferget ur parents..

to illa: u are not the black sheep.. things juz were to happen.. and instead of thinking of all that, think of the brighter side.. even tho its not a good one.. like at least they/we get the experience.. we learn to overcome it... or we are juz generating the familie.. heheh.. do the familie generation wont die out.. hahahx..

to all: we can make a better out of this.. juz keep on trying and keep on being there of one another.. one dae, they will realise that even tho we are those mischievous ones, we can succeed..

and last of all.. i lurve u ppl.. and i will try to help u guys if i cud... so dun worrie and be happy...
things will brighten up..

welcome new comer

2007-10-01T23:18:00.000+08:00

welcome baby muhammad nabil!!
its a baby boy!!

well.. rosfarhan is a fucker..
i am so pissed off with him..
BIG FAT LIAR!!
urgh...
he spoilt my day..!!!!

A new Fone

2007-09-29T01:00:00.000+08:00

yepz... mom got me a new fone... yay yay... a stylish fone.. NOKIA E65.. yay!! but no game.. no nice themes.. haix... while at the shop, i was standing and staring into empty space.. then when i saw somebody parents.. so i walk over to them and salam laa.. hahahax.. so long neva see them.. but i donno.. i feel that some thing is not right.. shit.. i actuallie got a lot to sae.. but fer now, i have to leave this till here.. coz i wanna tok on the fone.. heheheheheheheh.. bye!!

12th dae of fasting mth

2007-09-25T20:29:00.001+08:00

so far so good..
i didnt miss out ani daes in the mth..
still im fat..
urgh..
anw..
im still broke..
and sick..
omg..
sick like shit...
haix...........
okie bye..

broke..
sick..
tired..
haix...

result is out

2007-09-20T13:18:00.000+08:00

i passed!!
wo-hoo..
my G.P.A is 2.933..
im so happy..
but my fav mosule i got C and the module i hated so much(due to the lecturer) i got a freaking A..
suprising seh!!
hahahahha..
okie2...
i got 1 A, 2 B+, 2 B, 2 C and 1 A...

Name : NUR NADHIRAH BINTE HASHIM
Admission No. : 074530W
Course of Study : DIPLOMA IN MULTIMEDIA & INFOCOMM TECHNOLOGY (ITDF05)
Grade Point Average : 2.933

Module Code	Description	Module Type	Module Grade	Module Credit	Remarks
IT1835	PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT	PE	B	2
IT1843	DATA COMMUNICATIONS & NETWORKING	CM	B+	5
IT1844	INTERNET APPLICATION DEVELOPMENT	CM	C	4
IT1845	PROGRAMMING METHODOLOGIES & PRACTICES	CM	A	5
IT1846	GRAPHIC DESIGN	CM	C	4
IT1847	DIGITAL ELECTRONICS	CM	B+	3
IT1848	CREATIVITY & CRITICAL THINKING	CM	D+	2
IT1849	DIGITAL ELECTRONICS PROJECT	CM	B	5

okie2..

the dae b4 yest i went out after buke wif sis and fam..
to meet granny..
hahaha
anw...
we sat at t.mart.
while waitng fer bro in law tok to his mother..
anw..
then it took so long that i decided to go home first...
then i heard the sound..
so loud..
frm my room..
my heart started racing...
i went into my room to take a look..
everything seems normal..
but the sound was still there...
and i saw it..
a criket(i think so laa)..
so green..
so big...
it was sitting on top pf my curtain...
hahahhax..
i got so scared that i called bella's father to help me settle it...
well..
amir came before him..
we took a look..
then he came..
catch the thing..
hahahax..
my room was so messy..
but it was out..
he let it go outside the house..
hahaha...
i quickly shut the door and wait fer a call...
but until 5 am.. there is still no call from him...

anw..
currently at bella's house..
the two of us only..
hahahax..
the smelly us juz woke up and feel so bored..
hahahahax..
okie..
bye..
wanna watch korean drama show..

im broke like shit..
my prepaid fininsh!!
i got not a single cent..
i dun have ciggie..
i got ez-link money let alone cab fare...
i feel like shit..
i need money!!!!!

i dont get it

2007-09-15T01:13:00.000+08:00

i dont get myself...
fer a moment i was happy..
and now..
i feel so down...
what shud i do?
haix..
currently sitting by my window..
and sadly..
im crying..
why??
i donno..
haix..
im broke like shit and life currently sux..
sux like fuck..

bored dead..

2007-09-13T23:13:00.001+08:00

bored like shit!!
went to wanie's blog..
then saw some quizzes..
so decided to do it..
and look ard and do more..
bored shit..

adeq's lame-ass excuse to break up:

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[noun]:

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[noun]:

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Why do people run from adeq?

When you fart the earth shakes

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You are a persistent flirt

You know that eventually with patience, your girl/guy will cave to your charms. All you have to do is be as available as possible until that day comes. You are very smart because you’ve already learned that you can have anything with just a little persistence.

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Death through sex!

You are going to die by having a heart attack during sex. This is probably because it fills up so much of your time now that if you died doing anything else, it would be going against the odds
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Kindness

Kindness is most important in a boyfriend/girlfriend. You want someone who will go through everything with you - the best moments and the worst, and all of those other moments in between. You love to be able to say anything to your partner, and have them say anything to you. You are able to be extremely close with your partner for that reason.

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hahha!!..
now you get it rite..
you see how bored i am..
that i did that much of quizzes..
now now...
what shud i do eh??

i want hym but i hate him

ferst dae of fasting!!

2007-09-13T04:53:00.000+08:00

well..
todae is the ferst dae of fasting..
its sahur time..
didnt eat tho..
mom insist me to wake up..
so didnt wanna argue...
woke up had milk, a piece of nugget and back to my room..
smoked one stick..
and here i am..
it had been sometime that i updated..
lots of things happen..
and of coz there is lots of fight..
dun wanna tok bout it..
coz i hate thinking bout it..
haix...
hidop hidop..

i love hym but hate him..

"I Don't Love You"

2007-09-11T00:16:00.000+08:00

Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

a forbidden want

2007-09-09T22:12:00.001+08:00

i want hym but i cannot have hym..
i have him but i dun want him..
i just want to be wif hym and let go of him..
but its difficult..
coz of him..
all my fault..
all my bloody fault..

spacing

2007-09-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

well.. its getting a habit of mine.. i spaced out every so often.. even wif people ard me.. haix.. i donno what is happening to me.. my mind is alwaes on the past when it suppose to be in the present.. else it will be in the future.. the unrealistic future of mine.. getting all i want.. thing to go the wae i wanted it to be.. i hate it.. all i want id to be in the present.. not the past.. not the future.. i realise i got a new habit.. that is to look in the sky and space out.. go to my own werld.. a werld of my wants.. but the thing is, no one realise it.. coz i look like i was enjoying the senery.. then again.. i ask myself.. why the sky.. it used to be the sea.. i loved the sea.. but i think it chg when i meet this person.. he made the sea look so ugly.. so disturbed.. and i had hard time to squeeze time to go down to the beach to watch the sea.. then the sky is everywhere.. i can look at it frm aniwhere.. anitime.. and dun need mom permision.. coz i dun need to step out of the house.. haix..

little miss kinky
will give you my heart

aper nak uat eh?

2007-09-07T02:22:00.000+08:00

well.. currently at nex door.. so broken eng seh... nvm.. bella toking to her beloved hubby and im here being all nonsense again.. hahahx..
i donno.. im not in a good mood.. haix..
its starting all over again...
haix...
anw..
been spending my time watching anime..
okie..
fine.. to be exact i been watching bleach..
hahahx..
now im at episode 65 plus..
hahahx..
good enuf fer me..
coz i reached that far in 3 daes..
plus sleeping tru it..
not concentrating(which means having to reapeat the episode again and again...)
hahahax..
somehow..
my mind loves to space out these few daes...
its not in this werld...
haix..
i donno where it went..
but i noe its not on him..
coz he pissed my ass off..
i recall thinking the one before..
once..
the the one before that too..
once too..
the rest i had been thinking on how my life had went tru...
i need to keep myself motivated..
coz i had a bright future..
im a diploma student...
i need to bring out my fam name..
i need to bring up the name..
i noe that some ppl think i cannot make it..
i wanna prove them wrong..
i wanna do this..
i wanna do this right..
but i need support.
lots of support...
haix..
its not as easy as said..
i mean..
i donno wad so difficult..
all i need to concentrate..
i need to focus..
and look forward..
haix..
but some thing is holding back..
its the hollow..
ooops..
too many anime...
okie2..
gtg...
wanna chg my blog skin...
bye...

dear.. im here.. wif u in my mind..

somehow

2007-09-02T21:38:00.000+08:00

somehow... i have a lot of pink tops... i mean im getting quite a number of pink tops this year.. i hate pink and this year, i got a pink tube, pink tee and juz bought hot pink old nave top frm wanie.. great..

somehow... today is cine's bdae.. so happy birthday liroy!! hahahx.. sorry to publish ur full name here.. but rest assure no much ppl noe my blog..
his handwritting.. nice eh.. hehe.. i force him

anw.. update laa eh... start frm todae..
went out.. spent my morning nex door.. wif bell.. duh.. didnt do anithing much.. we had breakfast wif nana too.. so we sat in the room.. then nana wanted to watch garfield.. so yaa.. we watch the cat show... boring dae laa..

yest was worse.. spend the dae nex door too.. chill.. plan to help bella wif art.. but ended up going out wif mom.. she actuallie ask me to come down to help carry thing.. i was thinking what thing seh... when dad park the car i was alreadie stunned... i bloody big tv.. 29" i think.. i and dad had difficultied carrying it up stairs... the thig is bloody heavy... well.. then went to loyang pt.. the food there sux so does the customer service... then set up the tv... went nex door.. chill.. waited fer cik mil to go out then went to stairs to smokw then bella followed me back hm.. then slack.. boring shyte.. she went back at ard 11 plus.. then i was tired too.. and sleep...

fridae... went back to east view.. meet shahida and her guy.. i call him jejaka.. hahahhax.. was late laa... hehehe... went in saw my darling.. hahahx. then followed her to see harold goh... then sat at teachers' seat.. watch performance.. jejaka was the excited one... like as if he schools there.. hahahax.. funny seh... anw... we saw a lot of ppl... tok to ms chin, audrey, deliah, farizal(urgh!! he disturb me seh) and a couple more.. cudnt find leon.. we gave up and left.. i and darling smoked.. and shahida and jejaka left... since we got no where to go, aishah decided to go her grandmother's house... to chg.. but instead he ended up slacking there.. farisha(i think) was so adorable.. shy but when okie oredi... so tokative.. hahahx... aishah and i shared a box of ciggie... sat near 424 there.. wif aisyah potter.. hahhax.. we tok2.. so bored... then went up to eat ice cream... then her nekx gave me wajid(isit spell like that??) thanked her.. we watch cartoon then left.. then went home lor.. slack alone.. boring eh...

boring seh... i so sleepy.. i chg back to the other no coz prepaid low... when got money then i top-up lor... haix.. im broke like shyte.. wif no ciggie.. low prepaid... no money seh... i wanna watch movie!! i want choc!! i want to shop!! i need money!! i need food.. i cant believe i didnt have lunch and dinner todae.. haix.. fuck broke seh.. i got no money to even feed myself let alone save seh.. sch is out.. what shud i do eh?? i need werk laa.. haixxxx.....

i feel like shyte!! i miss my old life.............. but i gez i shud be happy now.. coz this is what i chose... haix.. so xiannn..

my tots

2007-08-30T23:24:00.000+08:00

i juz place my head on the pillow when i got up back again.. hmm.. i was thinking bout something when it my mind juz said, back to this bed again.. yepz... fer this past few daes i spend my days in bed.. i caught a cold.. its was bad.. okie.. lets see.. sun bdae is todae.. happy birthday smiling old sun.. and nat's was yest.. class having pit tml.. and im not coming.. hahahx.. i fell sick on sun... it all started like this.. bell came hm late and was stuck outside so sleep over mine... that was when i got the fever... frm her.. and the nex morning i feel like shyte.. so i didnt go out.. had breakfast which i manage to throw the remaining quarter when mom not looking... then back to bead wif sis's blanket.. mine to small laa... and sleep.. mondae blues laa.. sleep and rest the whole dae... then on tues i got IAD paper.. woke up in the morning.. puke while bathing.. i hate it... shyte.. came late... was 15 mins late.. tok to lect telling that i was not feeling well.. but decided to take the paper aniwae.. so yaa... straight hm after that.. all the wae i persuade my self saeing a lil bit more b4 i can hit the bead.. a lil more and im done with thes shyte.. ect.. it was raining when i was otw hm.. i try to sleep in the buz to ignore me feeling cold and nauseas... got hm and sleep.. until nyte.. had a werd or two and back to sleep... mom force me to eat some anarex.. then she disappear to werk.. empty stomach wif something like panadol.. sux.. it came out again.. tru mouth... yucks i tell u.. i sat down on the chair in the toilet..(luckly got chair) and puke in the bowl.. i open my eyes and saw yellowish liquid that make it more yucks.. and ouke more.. worse i forgot to flush b4 opening my eyes.. so i sae brown liquid... eeeeeeee... sux.. then wash up and sleep... hhahax.. by the nex morning felt a lil better.. and a lot hungry.. after 2 daes not eating and throwing out... i came to mom room when she came hm in he morn.. complained.. and ask her to cook porridge fer me... then had small bites... sleep outside coz tired of this bed.. watch tv.. manage to force myself to bath... and rest the whole dae.. then todae.. was PMP paper.. dont bother to ask how was it.. felt better... after paper chill with kenneth while waithing fer the rest to come and meet him.. had a good laugh or two... funny laa that guy.. then back hm.. and back to this bed which is sick of me... hahax...

wanie selling old navy tops.. nice laa... i oso want.. but i donno which one i want.. hmmm... donno laa... you support her too eh...

tml comming down to evss.. being pulled by shahida.. duh.. she want to see leon... nvm.. juz accompany her then my nex plan is hm... sleep again...

::i got leg sore from resting too much::
::it hurts::

haix..

2007-08-26T23:07:00.000+08:00

well.. have not been updating fer the past few daes.. well.. life suxs..
so yest, went to johore.. lets start frm morning.. hmm... dad woke me up.. worse than mom trying to wake me up on schooling daes... he knock the door and it feels like it will break ani moment.. bath got dress then off we go.. didnt have much time.. coz dad woke me up late... he bath oredi.. and mom is almost done bathing.. so i onli have enuf time to get dress(non time to chose) and pack bag.. i dun even have time to iron my clothes.. so i pass mom my kebaya nyonya top.. wear my jeans search fer a spag stripes... well.. those dont need to iron.. the jeans is tight enuf that when i wear the crease will all straighten up.. brought brown tee, and my brown jacket... extra pair of slippers... grab all my make up and chunk it in my seventeen bag together wif the clothes and books... and off we went.. i had to use sis pair of shoes coz my shoes are not appropriate.. sis got the feminine shoes aniwae.. so yaa.. went to the other side of tamp to have breakfast there.. that was when i learn that the jemputan is not in spore.. its in johore itself.. omfg! okaay... took cik rose and her hubby and went to sengkang esso to meet busu and her fam... total 3 cars... so we head out to johore after buying sweets and junk frm the shop and faris(i think so that is his name laa) top up his oil.. went tru heatic immigration.. it sux esp if ur stuck in a squeezy car... well.. then dino invited me to join me to join them in the car.. he actuallie took the effort to call mom to ask her permission..hahahx.. so yaa.. i join them... smoked... dian and dino were karaoking hindustan song... hahahax.. then off we went... the two busu and danish and iziie(i think so that were their name) in the gray car... mom, dad and cik rose and hubbie(hueva his name was) in dad blue car) and us the growing teens in the yellow car... the place is like 1 hr plus ride.. it is off kota tinggi(i think so).. moving towards desaru... hahahx.. we stuck close to dad who stick close to busu coz we donno the wae there.. thank god busu alwae go so he noes the wae.. hahahx... in the car smoked my ass out.. thanx to dino fer giving me ciggie and inviting me over!! when we reach we ate... i asked dad after settling down wif our food,"saper kahwin??" and dad got the cheek to reply me,"ntaa.. mkn jek laa.." well.. going to that jemputan, i realise one thing abt my father side.. okie at least the 3 brothers, they eat alot and loves chillie!! hahahx... anw anw... hung ard the house fer a while.. the off we went.. to mini kelantan.. and of coz... after food and in the yellow car, we smoked on the wae... muahahaha.. we smoked the last stick anw.. hahax.. so when we reach there... i follow dad.. he was searching fer ciggie... he too was out of ciggie... hahax.. i pretended i need water.. i was thirsty but my motive is to check the ciggie prize range... hahax.. search fer kain.. i manage to disappear to get my ciggie.. i cud onli afford a small pack pall mall.. awww.. then off to angsana.. back in yellow car.. we all had re-new our ciggie so off went the smoke machine.. hahahx.. there was an accident.. 1 big car(or was it lorry??) a bus, 1sanwished red car and i white van.. gosh.. it was horrible... the res car was eorse of all.. the front part was squashed under the bus and its back on top of the van.. all crumpled and squashed... then it rained heavylie... so had to smoke wif the windows opened so small... then gray car who was leading us got us all in the wrong direction... hahax.. the drivers discuss their route and off we went.. we were tired od sitting the car.. so dino borrowed my shoulder and i borrowed his head.. i didnt intentionally want to rest my head on his.. but i fell asleep.. coz i remember waking up by a bump of the car.. it was the not smooth road laa.. then dian turn behind to remark on us.. "ish.. tido.. hahax.." then i fell back to sleep.. hahax.. the nex thing i knew we were back on a more familiar road.. and very near to angsana.. coz a few sec when i wake up dian goes,"abang!! bangon!! daa sampai laa.." hahax.. he make a comment to borrow my shoulder again later.. then we went to car park.. did my hair.. finallie able to cut my hair.. but i chicken out.. did my normal treatment.. then i onlie asked fer the person to trim my hair.. give a 'V' shape and snip off the split ends... and yaa... i did snip off my fringe a little.. omg.. i was like wanted to cry to see the hairdresser snip off my fringe a few inch.. i ask fer it..coz i remembered that if i tie my hair.. my fringe is too long to tuck it behind my ears.. yaa... then we went to giant.. to get our groceries.. then i had to get back to dad car.. the yellow and gray car had disappear aniwae.. so yaa.. top up petrol.. and ehen i went out after paying, i sae faris.. topping up his car.. i was suprised.. and suprising, busu car was juz beside ours.. hahahx... and all along hen i watch out side thru the glass i didnt realise it at all.. hahax.. waited at them then back to singapore.. hahhax... we lost each other at the johore immigration.. it was so pack.. gtg.. got a fone call... bye..

bell.. this is fer u

2007-08-21T02:18:00.000+08:00

Rihanna Lyrics

her say

2007-08-13T22:14:00.000+08:00

firstly, a lot of things had happen.. from the last post till today.. that is 4 days.. okie.. here goes nothing.. on the 9 it was the national holiday. went out in the morning then came back home to enjoy the performance with a comfort of a home... but generally the performance did not wow me.. it was not that superb as last time and it was not what i expected.. then on the 10 i had to go to school to hand in GD project.. spent the whole freaking day in school.. i spend the night before finishing up the GD so by the time i meet ira everything is settle.. since i did not get any sleep, i went to afghan to get cigarette.. then off to school.. when i reach there, i asked erwin regarding the 10 thumbnails.. i forgot to bring it with me, and he says we had to hand it in.. so i had to go home to get it.. went back home and get it.. i was god damn pissed off by then.. i spend my whole morning in the but called 72 from tamp to sch back to tamp then again to school.. the whole total journey took 3 hours and 30 minuted.. so print the hell ect and paste it.. got problems and solved it.. soon it was close to 4.. i was very hungry as i got no money after buying cigarette thus no food fer the whole day... i quickly went to nekx as bell promised to meet up there... but the food not ready and the is only veggie to go along with ice.. i was almost dying.. then meet him, he sent me homw, then we had a great long deal of talk.. more bout it later.. it was a very hetic day for me.. i was so tired after all the crap that i fell asleep quite quickly.. on the 11 i did not do much i guess.. coz i could not remember what i did on that day.. 12 went to 352 to study wif bell.. our fav spot to study.. we get to see the peps downstairs plaing ball and free wind and peace mind...

today.. stayed up coz had to hand in GD CD.. haix... i did not want to hand in the CD by myself so i asked(okie almost begged bell to accompany me) so wanie decided to accompany me... chg of plan.. then darl fizah called me.. and broke the news... bout that later too.. i was so meshed up.. so went out to clear my mind off.. had dinner at mac then home.. mom bought this stupid thing to curl her hair.. and i had doubt it will work.. well.. i help her do it coz dad donno how to do it.. and she is pissed off wif dad as dad kept on doing it his way which is wrong... hahahx...

well.. the later parts all come in here.. coz it is all about him.. firstly, we had the biggest fight.. i just could not get it.. for one moment he says this.. the next moment he says that.. and will get bloody pissed off at me.. i understand that he is stress at work but he dont need to pick up the phone and vent his pissed-ness at me.. then say sorry... its like you were tired after a long day.. he called you and you were hoping you call talk to him and chill your mind out... hoping he will end your day nicely.. but when u picked up the phone and try to talk to him.. he gets pissed off.. then he start attitude... you get pissed off, so you started to yell at him(being natural me, when im pissed off, i tend to yell at people..) then he feel better or realized that you are totally upset already.. he said sorry to pissed you off.. well.. its like he expect this.. ' he pissed you off, then say sorry and expect that the word sorry will ease yourself and you will feel calm.. and everything goes back to normal.. like as if it did not happen..' i was so hurt... i need some one to lean on... tru this situation im going tru i need a shoulder to cry on.. with his harshness, he is the cause of my hurt even more... i began to give up... i told him never to make me give up as the cause will be bad.. anw.. he then know what i was suffering since i was there fer him.. but it too late.. i had been patience to him.. but its like he takes it fer granted... and it reached my limits.. i want my say too.. i want to do things i like too.. but he wants everything to go his way... that is so not fair.. he had once promised me that he will not make me be upset fer no reason or not for my fault.. but i told him... i dont want promises.. all i want is fer you to prove it to me.. coz i doubt that you can.. i dont want empty promises.. i dont want promises to be broken... i dont like it.. its like when i was wif nat.. i promises not to let go of his hand until he let go of mine.. i promised that.. but i could not fufill that.. i feel bad.. so i dont want promises.. in a relationship there is no need to promised.. coz if you love that special someone, you will automatically not do that something that your special someone dont like coz you loved him/her too much to risked it... and if a promised is made, then eventually the task is more of doing it to keep to the promised instead of coming from the bottom of your heart.. but he kept on doing it... kept on hurting me... i started to cry and cry everyday.. but it got even worse... i started to cry whenever im alone.. firstly i feel so lonely.. i got no friends.. and him being like that.. i got confused... so i guess it ended last night when i was so pissed off.. then today while i was next door.. i recieved a call from fizah.. telling me that he got himself into an accident.. i donno what to say.. in fact i donno what i felt... i pang of guiltyness flow into my body... i felt i wanted to visit him.. talk to him.. but if i meet him, it shows that i wanted to be with him.. but i donno if i want to be with him... im so confused...

i need help.. i think i need to see a counsellor.. but i dont want to... need to go back to school to pay my fees.. first day of hungry ghost festival... i need to help but i am unwilling to listen.. i need some advise but im afraid of them..

not in the mood

2007-08-09T23:13:00.000+08:00

well... since yest it was not a good dae.. it was hell.. anw.. im using comp instead of lappy.. coz bell is using it.. cammon hurry up.. this comp sux.. i need to do GD coz its not done yet.. need to do up the script and the editing... shit..
bella said to me that time is moving fast.. she is 30weeks preggie and 69 daes to labour.. good luck dear... hehe... aniwae.. things going bad btw me and him.. haix.. donno laa... well..
gtg... want to use lappy to do werk.. okie fine..not want.. but need..

still in a confuse state..

in GD class without lecturer

2007-08-08T12:01:00.000+08:00

in GD class.. fauzan and the other lady lecturer not in.. actuallie went fer the PMP revision class.. but so xian.. onli me and brother and of coz laa.. kiasu pei ling.. hahax... but after some time, brother and i left the lect room and went to GD laa.. some of the other class mate inside... so we chill here laa.. hmm.. donno where to go.. xian2... haix... i gez i shud be on the wae home.. at least can play the harry potter and oso do the GD so i like can send fer printing soon.. so ta-ta... bye!!

the dae

2007-08-06T23:01:00.000+08:00

yesterday went fishing.. yepz we did... fer a short while.. the sea was low tide so we gave up.. went back hm ard 2130hr.. all we caught was seaweed and more seaweed.. haix.. but learned to throw the bait properly oredie.. progress but not good enough.. kit and i mannage to throw to the third wave... we knew it coz dad put a glow-in-the-dark stick near the bait.. dad threw it so far after the wave.. more on the calmer sea further.. haix.. nex fishing trip muz do better...

todae was fine.. boring.. bella slack over mine.. we sat in sis room.. the three of us were bored to death.. i played harry potter while sis on her lappy and bella on my lappy... sis coocked corned beef... was hungry though.. i went to buy the food at t.mart, bella cut the ingrdients and sis cooked the foos up.. wif the 3(and a half) of us being pratically hungry, we finished the food fast.. and back to our nonsense.. mom came hm.. nuryna started to disturb us.. she followed mom out so we had a quiet afternoon.. then cik zul called and asked bella to come home.. he can come over and pick her up but he called.. ?? hello!! we live next to each other.. wtf.. aniwae, bella didnt want to come home but hadd to.. so left me and sis in the room.. nuryna was busy disturbing mom adn dad.. soon kit came home.. and i had to stoped playing.. i played frm scratched but now am 45% done.. was bored... and sis got the webbie to lead thru the game.. and now sis and her family watching high sch musical..

tml got DE comman test.. 1630hr to 1800hr..(i think) blk unknowed yet.. got to go and study!! bye!!

Don't worry, Be happy

2007-08-05T17:21:00.000+08:00

well.. currently waiting fer nuryna to finish shitting... mom and i juz woke her up and she told us, yak yak.. damn her.. the three of us waiting fer to wake up so we can like go and eat.. juz now if we left at 3, dad bringing us to fish.. but by now the sea is low tide so tough luck.. dun think will be fishing.. high tide will be like 4morning.. told dad to go fishing ard tat time.. then i go sch frm there.. xianx.. dun think so laa.. haix.. nana quick laa shit we are all very hungry and waiting fer u.. haix..

he is doing long shift todae.. he juz msg me that he will be doing closing due to one staff who could not make it fer werk todae..

im destressing my self.. playing Dont't worry, Be happy by Bob Marley over and over again... its a happy song...

its lyrics...
Bob Marley
Don't Worry Be Happy(*Whislting*)..........

Here's a little song I wrote,
you might want to sing it note for note,
dont worry,Be happy,
In every life we have some troubles,
but when you worry you make it double,
dont worry,be happy (don't worry be happy now)
ohhh ooh ooh ohh(don't worry)
oooh oohh oohh(be happy)
ohhh oohh oohh(dont worry,be happy)
ohh oohh ooh (dont worry,be happy)
(don't worry be happy)

And at the place to lay your head,
somebody came and took your bed,
dont worry,be happy,
the landlord say your rent is late,
he may have to wait to get ,
but dont worry...be happy(look at me I'm happy)

ohhh ooh ooh ohh(don't worry)
oooh oohh oohh(be happy)
oooo0h (here I give you my phone number you you worried,
call me I make you happy)
00000oh 00o0o0oh(dont worry)
ooooh oohh (be happyy)ooooh ohhh

Ain't got no place to lay your head,
somebody came and took your bed,
don't worry....be happy.
The landlord saying your rent is late,
He may have to litigate.
but don't worry...be happy (look at me I'm happy)

ohhh ooh ooh ohh(don't worry)
oooh oohh oohh(be happy)
ohhh oohh oohh(dont worry,be happy)ohh oohh ooh
(dont worry)
ohh oohh oohh(be happy)
(don't worry be happy)

ohhh ooh ooh ohh(don't worry,dont do it)
oooh oohh oohh(be happy,put a smile on your face)
(dont bring everybody down like this)
ohhh oohh oohh(dont worry)ohh oohhh
(it will soon pass,whatever it is)
ohhh oohhh ohhh (dont worry,be happy)
ohhh oohhh oohhh (I'm not worried)

i'll be going now... bye...

ho-hum

2007-08-04T21:47:00.000+08:00

well.. the other dae.. after DCN i dunno where to go... was god darn bored... decided2.. took 72 and was still deciding.. was looking fer an interesting mall so i can like hop off and go window shopping.. but no mall was appeling enuf.. so i reached tamp... sat at the void deck.. where else can i go.. so went to nekx... onli nekx was at hm wif sleeping fir... so i went up.. to rest.. the doorbell rang and there stood bella.. we crap together.. she asked nekx to cook rawan... then dun have the daun.. so the 3 ladies went out to mall and cs to get it.. but insted nekx got bella a pair of shoes and long beans.. but no daun.. hahahax.. by the time we reach hm it was close to 3.. i had to leave the house... so had a quick lunch and off to sch...

in the buz, i sat at the top deck, on the left right in front.. was day dreaming and thinking where to go, when this mak cik boarded the buz.. she sat nex to me..
she: this buz go to eunos??
me:(came back from day dreaming) urh?? no..
she: melayu eh??
me:urh?? a'ah..
she: ouh.. mcm cine..
me: eh.. ouh.. ni buz pegi tampines.. ni belok kiri daa nak masok tampines..
she: skg anak melayu daa rosak.. daa tak de tao malu... cium2 dlm buz..
me: yaa... (about to enter my day dreaming)
then she went on blabering on teenagers.. but what struck to me was, jodoh tak akan ke mane.. kalo pompan kejar laki2 pon tak de gune.. laki2 kalo dorg ade pompan, tak kesa.. asl kan lawa, pandai, maseh suci... kalo pompan, mesti carik yg kacak, pandai, kaya, tahu jaga ati, cermat.. pompan patut nyer lagi susah nak carik laki2.. psl pompan nak ni nak tu.. tapi pompan nie, senang.. senang nak jatuh hati.. laki2 ckp ni ckp tu, troz suke laki2 tu.. laki2 buat ni troz sedih laa.. mcm2.. bile break, laki2 suke pretend... konon nyer sedih laa tu.. pompan tak suke tunjok die sedih.. laki2 lain dtg dlm hidup die.. dan troz laa start balik..
i was like.. hmm.. it quite true if i think deep bout it.. but.. i donno.. let time tells.. fer now was i want i let wadeva be, be.. and wadeva needed to be chged, chged..

well.. while i sat at the void deck, i was crying.. and this kid to her maid,"kakak, tengok rambot die.. pink and black.. style seh.. but she cry.. asl dier cry?? lawa abey cry.." the maid juz pull her awae.. i was so hurt.. i got no one to tok to.. other then bella... i rallie got no one to tok to.. fer at that time of moment, my parents dun want to tok to me, he does not wanna to tok to me, and of coz... im still the loner in sch.. well, not reallie.. i sometimes tok to ira, kenneth.. but on sch stuff.. i got nothing to tok bout.. well.. so i was like depressed.. i got loads of things in my mind.. sch, money, wants, needs, home, him... haix.. wad shud i do..

yest
finish sch after GD.. so went home.. need to charged mp4 and hp.. so went hm.. prepare things fer GD mini project.. ect.. mom bought breakfast fer me.. left hm at ard 2... need to be in sch by 3.. but as usual.. left late.. reach late.. and actuallie dun need to come.. it is to hand in report and tats it.. the report is wif sharon.. so there is no need fer me.. haix.. so anw.. took 162 to far east.. and went to show center... took the wrong esclator up.. haix.. meet him.. went to look ard since he haven finish yet.. and i saw lots of things i want.. feeling so pissed of looking ard coz got no $$ to get it, i went up back. was juz in time.. and we went to eat at KFC and back hm..

i donno wads wrong wif me.. something at the pit of my heart is telling me that something is not right.. i donno.. other then no one to tok to. i got lots of other things that made me doddamit depressed.. not reallie depressed laa.. down.. i feel like crying all the time.. okie.. xcept wen i ard someone.. but i feel so lonely.. think back.. its like i got no frenz..

come and go..

in DCN

2007-08-02T11:05:00.000+08:00

in DCN..
we are having lab test..
i finish mine within 30minutes.. yay!!
i think i can get full marks...
yay.. or mayb more.. blab -_-'
hahax..
aniwae..
im the only one hu finish the test..
lalla..
so i ecided to sit here and blog fer a while..
sitting beside brother..
he is so clueless...
hahahax...
and ben and foo lin infront..
haha...
okie..
another paper handed in!!
wonder hu...
fone ringing...
students panicking..
computer buzzing...
voices whispering..
hahahx..
im so glad...
lect so kind...
he help me to hint on some diff question...
hahhahhax..
20more mins fer them to finish...
lalalalala...
i can see ben and foo lin head turning to each other to ask fer help...
lalalal...
but i doubt both of them know a single thing..
well mayb foo lin know..
year two student mah..
i think so laa he year two..
wait..
ben oso year two..
-_-'
so wadeva laa...
brother is starting to panic...
alot of mistake..
spelling mistake..
okie fine..
typo error...
lalalal...
hahahx..
luckly i got the easy one..
i finish it in a speed..
every time i call "Sir!"
kenneth will turn and look at me...
hahahax..
i won this time!!
coz...
we challanged hu finish ferst...
well..
hu finish early will get bonus marks..
but donno if its true not laa..
lalalalallala
im bored...
i got a long break later..
he is totallie mad at me...
coz yest, i went out wif bella...
and came home late...
we went to watch movie...
haix....
daa laa..
got to settle the problem wif him...
haix..
sian2...

updates..

2007-07-31T21:23:00.000+08:00

have not been blogging these daes.. been bz doing sch werk... okie.. shall update u ppl...
Wednesday
July 25,2007
Well.. i cant remeber much.. went out wif him... if im not wrong went to vivo to watch movie.. we watch the invisible target.. it was a good show..
Thursday
July 26,2007
basically my lesson fer the dae was:
DCN lab 1000h to 1200h we did a try-run pratical test..
break 1200h to 1300h
DCN lect 1300h to 1500h well.. the lesson lasted for 30mins.. nothing much left fer lect..
break 1500h to 1600h
DE lab 1600h to 1800h Pratical test.. mine is on week 16, so dont need to come..
yaa.. so i ended sch at 1330h.. called him and came down to TVC by MRT and bus.. stop at habour front and took 10 there.. it was raining heavily... had to run to in to TVC.. coz no shelter.. i could hardly open my eyes due to the rain.. i was shivering when i enter the building.. well.. he gave me donno hu raincoat.. a huge one.. and i took of my shoe... then he left to send order.. i went down to get some munchies... i was hungry.. went to cold storage downstairs.. nothing much.. got some crakers and came up.. studied... then left the place ard 4pluss.. send him off.. he have to send another order.. then i went back...
Friday
July 27,2007
GD totally suck now.. well actuallie the grp i got sucks laa... it all because of pei ling... haix.. nvm.. got the topic coz pei ling reallie wanted to do it.. shit her.. and yet she donno wad to do wif it.. idiot!! so i ended up drawing.. was not in my bez mood... fight wif him.. finnish ard 11.. so he came to yio chu kang to meet me.. it was raining again... we fight and fight... then we went to eat... then he sent me off a lil early... ard 2... he told me he wont be sending me home... coz it was raining.. at first i was making a lot of noise laa.. then i remembered the nail polish shop at interchange.. and i badly want some.. so ask him fer money.. $5.. coz its 1 fer 2bucks and 3 fer 5bucks.. he gave me $10.. the other $5 was fer nuryna prezzie... sat at sch and went in fer DEP.. the girls didnt come.. well.. onli me and bee are the girls laa.. and of coz the kiasu pei ling was there laa.. the rest were the guyz... so we had to take record fer our report.. took it down.. wif help frm the lab lect.. then we had a great deal of laugh... hahahx.. due to hafiz laa.. duh.. our joker.. so then i walk back to yio chu kang fer 72 there... wif kenneth and brother jip.. funny laa them.. got to interchg... got the nail polish.. one skin colour(good fer french manicure), white(coz i dun have white) and black(coz mine at hm was too thick and old, expired i think)... then got home..
Saturday
July 28,2007
Nuryna Aqilah second birthday!!! Happy birthday dear darling niece!! well.. promised bell to go get her a prezzie fer her... she and wanie woke up early.. called me asking me to wake up.. and they were hungry.. so i bath, and went off.. the house was damn darn clean.. bil(brother in law) cleaned it laz nite wif sis... so we went to t.mart and got mee soto wif out taugeh and xtra chillie... then off to t.mall... we went ard t.mall, cs and cudnt find an apropriate one within our budget.. went to the pasar mlm near nekx.. nothing much coz most shop haven open yet.. then went back to toys'r'us... got this nice one but we were short of a few cents.. got fed up coz we had spend like 3 hrs looking fer her prezzie.. gave up and went mini toons to get a cuddlie fer her.. saw this princess pillow come storie book.. like it and bought it... then went hm.. to t.mart ferst.. to get her a princess paper beg.. but it was too small.. wanie saw jay and she wanted to slack wif him.. so bell and i went off home.. mom ask me to wrap her prezzie coz it wud look better.. i add in the princess pencil i bought... and nekx was home... everyone was bz preparing the party... bla3... the party was a blast.. cik lina, cik mila, nekx, mona, uncle, tok, hannie, iva, papillo came.. sis ido baby fren like niza and her children was there too.. and bil friends too... when ppl left had to thank them fer comming.. and hannie, iva and papillo were the laz to leave... sis went out.. ajak them to leave wif them laa.. but papillo wanted to shit so yaa.. sis left.. and wwe waited.. when she done, hannie wanted to watch this suria show until finnish.. lucklie bella was there to accompanie me to entertain them.. gosh!! i hate them so so much... not papillo laa... wadever.. it was 11 plus when they left... i was thanking got.. i was tired.. so went in my room... prepared fer bed.. tok to him fer a while.. then bell msg to tok to her coz she was bored.. so i told her to open the door.. i sleepover laa.. quick smoke and went there.. told him.. then he left fer johore... then she wanted choc.. so had to go to t.mart to get her choc... bought hersheys and crakers... we planed to watch evan almighty... it was like noah's ark... she fell asleep half wae.. i was tired too.. but managed to finnish the story.. but the happening dont reallie process in mind coz too tired..
Sunday
July 29,2007
was shag frm the long dae before...woke up quite late... ask mom fer 4buck to buy sch stuff... need CD fer IAD, pencil fer GD coz nuryna lost mine, graph paper fer DEP report and glue... bell need to get her green arcylic paint.. then got food and GT fer me... then bell stay over my house.. coz we were bored... then mom ordered KFC.... we ate and color my hair red.. the result is pink.... omfg!!! i got no comments.. and mom hates it...
Monday
July 30,2007
well... every1 was shock to see my hair... hhax. there was an accident at amk inndustrial park II... it was quite bad.. ferst time see a scene like that.. want to know the storie... but donno how to find out..aniwae reach sch late... presentation fer PD... well a lil traumatize coz i saw the dead man face everything... so i stutter fer presentation.. but i did okie... wanie buay!! nvm... wore, sis jacket, No.3 top, and black jeans.. and sis shoes... yaa.. then went to focus class... revision... then meet him.. ate.. chill.. and went home...
Tuesday
July 31,2007
I SO WANNA WATCH THE SIMPSONS!!!
ahahha.. ira told me that it was funny and good.. awww.. he got a job at SHAW BROTHERS... good laa.. tml is his ferst dae at werk.. hopefullie it went okie..
okie.. its quite late and i need to sleep... bye... cannot be later fer tml...

In PMP class

2007-07-31T15:29:00.000+08:00

this week is the laz week of sch.. well.. not laa actuallie.. i still got a few more lesson nex week.. but hey, most of it dun need to come.. so thank god!! aniwae, had not been blogging fer the past few days.. okie.. fine.. fer 1 week oredie.. it bcoz i had been bz wif sch!! well.. had to finalize my IAD.. burn it on cd.. help soo hui to do our VB.. ect ect.. study2.. examinations are comming... and 1 module have lots to study.. it like the whole lecture book, txtbook and the lab papers.. alot sia!! okie2.. gtg.. got revision to do.. and.. ala.. alot laa... bye!

where is my Mr. Kinky

i so effing pissed off wif him!!

2007-07-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

bloody hell!!
so much for nit making me upset!!
so much for not making me cry!!
well done FUAD!!
u started back again!!!
u did it again...
so much for making sure i wont be close to upset!!!
fucking bugger!!
urgh!!
pissed my ass off..
u got no fucking mood to tok then dont tok!!
u got a problem dun want to tell me..
nvm..
i shut my crap up..
but then again, if u dun want to tok...
you dont need anione then
y the fucking hell have a girlfriend??
be on your own then..
dont love me!!
fucking arse!!
i tried my effing best to please you..
to make u happy...
to understand you..
but u dun want it!!
u reject it!!
u scold me!!
im like a fool..
in fact im the biggest fool!!!
i shud sae that in sick and tired and wanted to go to sleep...
but i didnt..
so i can spend my effing ass time toking to u...
i shud juz shut up!!
i shud juz give up!!
i shudnt follow to my stupidity...
i shud juz give up!!
thinking that things are getting better, but u started it again...!
u want to fight everydae??
u said u dun like it..
but u are not happy wif me...
so y stay wif me??
y hold me back when the other dae wen i give up??
urgh!!!

stupid furking arsehule!!! u pissed me off!!

holiday

2007-07-23T20:17:00.000+08:00

i woke up at five on Saturday morning.. well, did not planed to wake up that early.. but my eyes open at that time.. and could not fall asleep, i get a quick smoke and post.. then dad knock on my door.. bla3.. that is all in the previous post.. woke sis up to make her bath first.. cause she need to make up ect and take a lot of time..
well we went off close to seven.. actually everyone was ready by seven.. except for kit.. he made all of us wait for him.. he do not want to wake up when we wake him up.. until i was practically nagging in the room.. but we got off soon after.. it was a long trip.. had breakfast at komtar.. the dead shopping center.. the shopping centers there open around 10.. and we were there at 9.. so we did not get to shop.. ate, shit(for sis and kit), buy cigarette(for dad and kit) and we rode off to mersing.. it was two and a half hours ride(said in its website).. mentally prepared for the trip, we got ourself comfortable in the car.. well, soon nuryna doze off followed by kit and sis.. got bored staring out of the window, i fell asleep too.. after approximately 45minutes of sleep, i was waken up but the bounce of the car.. the road there sucks.. it was a bumpy ride.... haha.. i turn to see kit leaning on sis shoulder and she was leaning on mine.. nuryna was on our lap almost falling.. so i had to wake sis up to pull nuryna as i was afraid i would wake her up.. sis and i tried to take pictures of mountains so high up that the cloud makes it look like the mountains were volcanoes on smokes.. (the mountains were reddish mind you..)saw the sign post on distance.. mersing was around 20 miles to go(if i am not wrong)..
reach the "city".. we walk around.. nothing much.. so we drove off.. reach air papan.. and we still have to drive in to the fishing bay resort.. the place was small.. my first impression on it was like"okie... so this is it?? the promoter makes it sound so good.. but actually it is just this typical thing?? wtf.. we can like find it in Singapore... gosh" something like that.. mom checked in while we parked the car.. which was actually juz reverse and leave it there.. Malaysia mah.. hahax.. well.. got our room key.. F1.. the first room near the entrance.. and was coincidently just beside our car.. so we take out our things and put it at the balcony.. and surveyed the room.. cool.. it two room.. and a shared bathroom(with two doors).. chose the room.. i took the bigger room because of the singular bed.. and let sis get the queen size bed to share with kit and baby.. put our bags in.. unpack some important stuff and change for the beach.. played with the sand and sea.. oh how much i love the sea.. it was fabulous.. the sea water was so clear that you can still see your feet in it.. and it was cold.. hahax.. played the water.. swam and float around.. made sandcastle... kit made friends already.. gosh.. the had jetty jump.. so cool.. i wanted to join in but mom wont allow me.. "dangerous kan adeq.. nanti org sume tengok.. kao tu pompan.." bla3.. thing like that.. so i stayed in and hold nuryna.. she was standing on me so her stomach was at my ear.. and it was grumbling.. poor baby was hungry.. told mom and we got off the water.. wash up... and got ready to get food.. well.. we took lunch upon depature so there was no lunch provided.. we have to go out and get food.. gosh.. think of the long ride out just to get food.. and nuryna fell asleep while drinking milk at her pram waiting for us.. so not wanting to wake her up, mom and dad left us there and went out to get the food for us instead.. get to smoke.. and kit was already on the bed by nuryna side wanting to sleep.. made tea and sis was lying on the bed already.. so i went to my side of the room and switch on the television.. there was no channel.. so i sleep.. the next thing i knew mom and dad had reach back with the food... so i push the bed back so we eat.. got the in charged to change the channel.. omg.. we have to ask the people there to change our channel.. so not fun.. switched to HBO... the food was superb!! then sis, kit and nuryna change to the swim wear again and went off to the beach.. i was not feeling well.. mens came.. and i think i caught a cold... so i rest on the bed.. i help dad do our fishing rod.. well.. i did mine only... watch Tokyo drift.. it was an awesome show.. lots of action.. went back to the beach to gather sis, kit and baby to make them wash up the sand and prepare for diner.. kit wanted to karaoke.. but the place need to be set up first.. so instead we walk to another jetty nearby.. there we can see fish.. it looks so much like sword fish... but much smaller.. saw some kampong kids playing in the pondok at the end.. took pictures with them and went off.. it was close to seven by the time.. so we had diner.. it was nicely cooked.. went back and our bait came... got rest..
soon it was quite dark outside... and got dress... get the fishing gear and off to fish.. i could not throw a good throw.. in fact i could not throw.. it just plop down in front of me..

urgh!! my head hurts like hell!!! i think i want to eat some panadols he got for me and get some rest.. be back soon.. the latest tomorrow morning before school...
i exited at 2111hr on a Monday of 23rd july 2007

okie.. im late.. im in sch.. in PMP yet again.. anyway, dad sent me to tampines interchange.. then i took the bus here.. was on time.. hehe.. nothing much.. he in testing me.. i'll talk about this in next post as this is suppose to be only about the holiday..

well.. dad was to one throwing it.. because i could not throw.. then we got no result.. dad's string broke... so it was left with two fishing rod left.. mine and mom's.. kit took over mom's cause mom went in early to sleep and help sis make baby sleep too.. so the three of us went to the jetty we went in the afternoon... we sat at the pondok where the kampong kids was.. and we fish there.. well. it was easier there cause we dont have to throw it far... it does not even matter if it plop down right below us.. as soon as dad throw us the bait, we get to see the rod "bounce"(the top part).. that shows that there are fishes there.. and the fishes are actually eating the bait.. a big chance for us to catch fish.. but the fishes are only eating the side.. and bit by bit.. so we kept on reeling and find out that the bait had been eaten and we had to refill it again.. when the bait were finishing, dad allow us to try and throw the bait.. first, mine plop behind, second right below.. but i saw a technic and tried it out again.. it got to the front.. actually quite a distance.. but i was not satisfied.. so i reel and throw it again.. and wo-hoo.. i manage to throw it far.. yay! applause please... then kit could just not throw it far and gave up.. so i wanted to try.. so i throw.. and it stuck to the jetty itself.. hahahx... the rod was god damn heavy.. then the bait finnish so we went back...
i quickly wash up and off to bed...

the second day.. i woke up together at the same time wif mom.. dad was outside and had woke up earlier... i bath and got dress.. then woke sis and baby up... kit wanted to skip breakfast and continue his sleep.. hahahx.. so we ate... then chill... sis and i got to the beach to take pictures and draw on the sand.. soon it was time to book out.. the nex family comming in was already there... then we sat at the "lobby" then took pics.. got our lunch... and we left... it was along journey home... so we sleep after nuryna sleep.. it was a bumpy ride home... the tyres got wear and tear.. and it pancit... hahahx.. so we went to search fer a good shop to do the tyres... but it was god damn expensive... dad gave up finding the tyres, he used the spare tyre.. but the spare was small... so the ladies left the guys to do it under the hot sun while we went in to 100 to shop in air-condition.. got some important groceries... some CDs... then the guys came... carried the stuff and went back to the car... by then we were hungry again.. went to angsana to get some food and my hair dye... dad got headache due to no enuf sleep and long drive... so i gave him the panadols and we bought take aways from McDonalds.. had dinner in the car.. the car was so noisy.. except fer dad who was concentrating on driving and nuryna(suprising huh??) who was bz eating fries.. the rest of us we bz exchanging food demanding for drink, fries... i ate first and sis had to wait fer me.. Nuryna had to sit on our lap... so after i finish my food, i took nuryna away from sis.. sis ate her burger happily... hahahx.. then we went back.. was tired.. hhahx... carried everything up and left the things on the floor... wash up then called him.. tok fer a while then sleep..

hahahx.. that is juz it.. but it took me weeks to finish it up.. hahahax... okie laa... that is all folks!! bye!!

im back..

2007-07-22T21:51:00.000+08:00

okie people!! im back frm holidae.. and darn tired.. gosh.. i hate long rides.. it hurts my butt like hell.. bores me to death and well. darn effing tiring.. hmm.. not going to sae much bout the holidae coz... simply coz im to tired to do so.. wanna go to sleep.. tml got sch at 8... gosh.. feel so lazie.. feel like skipping sch.. aniwae... i will talk bout the holidae trip in the next post.. but not todae.. i dun feel well.. im here juz to tell that im back thats all...anithing msn me laa eh.. bye!!

ferst dae

2007-07-21T05:46:00.000+08:00

okie.. the icon illa made cannot be seen..ho-hum.. well.. its almost 6.. soon mom will be knocking on the doors to wake up and get ready fer the trip.. well.. i woke up ant 5.. had a quick smoke... haix.. flu + nose bleed suckx.. well.. did a lil blog hopping.. hmm.. got nothing to sae laa.. haix.. i dunno how to survive wifout my hp and msn and laptop.. haix... actuallie got nothing to sae.. haix..
hmm..
hmmm..
hmmmm..
hmmmmm..
okie laa.. really donno wad to sae..
bye!!
will be missing you ppl..
well.. u noe hu im referring to...
bye!!

done by:illa

2007-07-20T22:49:00.001+08:00

thankx sis.. i love it.. so me.. so meaningful... love you..
such a beau..
it like as if a professional had done it..
superb..
10 thumbs up!!

update!!

2007-07-20T20:01:00.000+08:00

lets start frm where i left..
hmm..
thursday, 19 July 2007
well.. had breakfast wif bella.. she called the nite b4 to ask me to go breakfast wif her.. coz she had to be at kk hospital by 8.30.. so we planned to meet at 7.30 at her house(yes.. juz nex door..) but she woke me up at 7.. ooops... so aniwae, both of us were on time.. then wanie wanted to follow so we have to wait fer her to chose her clothes... use her make up.. so i got bored and used make up too.. and bella was making noise.. hahahx.. so we left.. got to interchange to east link where bella and i plan to eat... bought our food and drink.. tok2.. then mirzan came.. hahaax.. everytime he come, things all will be joke.. he joke about everything.. then we left.. wanie and mirzan(who gave up on waiting fer arul to go to werk at new york pizza together) took the mrt.. and bella and i to bus interchange.. send her off to 23.. and took my buz to sch.. was freaking early.. and i got freaking sick... bla3.. sch was okie... then went hm. he cudnt pick me up.. so i had to take the buz... sway dae.. buz broke down.. everything was down at hm... was late to come home...

fridae 20th july 2007
that is todae... got to sch by mrt coz i was late again.. got gd lab assignment... which was at 8 to 10.. so had to be in sch on time.. but alas i was late.. -_-".. break went to ps wif him... had LJ and i saw this ip zone stuff on sale at 60%.. so we went in to get some stuff.. i got a brown jacket.. which he wanted a same one too.. but then didnt take it coz he didnt like the design.. -_-".. then search fer a jeans fer him which he didnt buy.. but he got a pair of shoe.. he went fer interview near there for SBS transit... didnt have enough time.. so i left by mrt again... got to sch... then at 4 pluss lesson ended.. wait fer him until 5 when he finnaly came.. went to serangoon to get shades but i didnt find anithing that wow me.. he got his.. and we left fer home.. fer him after sending me off he had to go to werk.. so reach hm.. chat wif sis.. got some rest.. then pack bag.. sis sux at packing so i packed fer her.. help her take out unwanted stuff.. fer god's sake it onli 2 daes and 1 nite.. and her bag was like fer 1 week.. but finally it was done.. then i packed mine..
im still sick.. and pluss... im getting mens soon... coz stomache hurts like hell.. migraine still here eif me.. i think i got used to it oredi.. well.. i donno if im excited fer mersing.. fer fidhing or some activities waithing to unfold there.. but im think im mentally prepared.. my head hurts.. my stomache cramp.. my back ache.. gosh.. i really need a good massage..
got to wake up at ard 6 tml.. coz dad want to leave hm at 7.. but i doubt so.. i got a feeling that we will be leaving at 8 pluss.. closer to 9.. wadever laa eh.. i show u the pics all wen i come back.. will be missing you people..

reminder: to do up my cms... ~dcn(muz finish all 4 quizes)
~de(bla3.. got the info all in paper.. lots of quizes and study material to go through..)
~website to be all done.. and burned on a cd..(to be handed in by week 16)
~to get done wif a storyboard.. (pei ling iritates me bout this)
i gez that is.. all to me done by sun nite.. except fer the website.. okie.. im done.. need to go and rest... tml will be an early morning.. and a darn damn dae... gd nite everyone.. i will be missing all of u..

cont. part 2

2007-07-18T10:31:00.000+08:00

was late fer sch again.. but todae suprisingly my whole class was late too.. hahax.. well.. PMP was okie.. hmm.. now in GD lesson.. this lect sux... darn... juz my luck.. soo hui decided to sit wif sharon which is at my place... so she will be nearer to the gerls.. wadeva laa.. so i sat at the laz row.. ben's place.. then cannot log-in.. chg to all the comp in the laz row.. then this ****** lect told me that the laz row comp lost its hub that means cannot lig in.. so that is equal to sitting right at the front since the rest were fully filled by the dumbo guys.. fucker... where pei ling sits.. darn.. but wadeva laa.. so what.. its onli 2 hrs.. if i cud partner her during ah-lian lesson y not noe.. no need fer partner werk aniwae.. so all i have to do is sit here and be buzy.. fuck fuck fuck.. her breath stinks like hell.. can anione give her a dozen of breath freshner strip?? hell!

aniwae.. to cont. bout the fight.. my hand still hurts now aniwae.. the wrist espicially.. hmmm.. where was i again?? ah.. yes..
i got so doubtful to give him the another laz chance.. if i give it means im vulnerable.. that means i onli sae it will be the laz chance but then if he does anithing erong if he begged again like that i will give again.. then it laz chance wont mean anithing.. coz it wont be the laz.. but again my stupidity was stronger then me.. and so i gave him.. but this time wif a deal(as written in the laz post).. haiz.. until wen will this go on?? until wen will i cry and cry again.. so much of thinking that he was diff from yf effing ex.. but then he is so similar.. his script.. his beg.. blaming me fer everything.. the only thing better of him compared frm that effing ex.. haix.. wadeva laa... i donno wad to sae animore..

haix!! wad shud i do?? i feel like a dumbo..

feel very conceptual todae... so i dig fer my band shirt.. but i cannot find it.. so i pull out a suitable shirt and the skirt. put in stud belt.. that is the big one.. my comfy yet smelly shoe... darker eyliner.. and off i go.. coz late oredi.. but the effing buz was late!! wadeva.. got to do montage/collage of my self... haix.. muz pass up todae.. hell..

cont.

2007-07-17T15:08:00.000+08:00

oops.. fell asleep yest... yet again so much fer five mins nap.. well... i woke up juz in time to wake him up at ard 5.. luckly i woke up.. didnt put alarm.. juz my luck.. then at 7 woke kit up... sleep until 10 wen he woke me up.. got dress... and off i go.. went mart to buy ciggie.. needed it since i got long sleep and still sleepy.. that is energy okie.. took 291 to afgan.. need to make key... lost my home key and using sis key.. so i made a colored one.. red in color.. hmm.. then off to sch.. suprisingly i was on time.. the buz was fast.. now im on PMP class.. hmm..

well.. let me cont wad i want to sae yest... where was i?? hmm.. ouh yes... fought wif him.. well.. he started to sleep.. i was like okie. since he dun understand the story, let him sleep laa.. but wen he woke up he blame me that i didnt story to him wad happen along the wae.. bloody hell.. he was sleeping wen i was toking to him and yet still can sae so... so i got pissed off and didnt want to tok to him... i felt like a fool.. being so patience wif him and this is the wae he treated me?? is it fair.. then he ignore me.. after the show we went off wifout toking.. he walk in front leaving me behind in tears.. he didnt even look at my face so of coz he will not noe i was crying laa.. i got the urge juz to walk off and take the public transport... but my stupidity was stronger then me.. so i followed all the wae.. sat on the bike and rode off behind him.. reach hm.. he still can sae,"nak balik, balik laa..." so he is suppose to me mad at me and i shud not feel anithing.. bloody hell.. so i yell at him.. i was darn pissed off.. fer those hu noe me well, u shud noe i will never yell unless i want that person to listen to me.. so i screaming and yelling at him.. i saw hadi, mimi ect under the blk.. but i didnt care coz i noe they will not care either.. then we went to 354 to tok.. i saw snapple prund glass bottle... i juz wanted to push it off the table.. and not to break it.. but i did broke.. so okie.. got a cut on my right hand coz i shove it wif that right hand.. but it didnt matter... played wif the broken glass... the laz time i played wif broken glass was wen bing broke off wif me.. i slam, throw try to break, step ect... well.. i hurt my left wrist, cut my right pointed finger and cut 2 left fingers.. but i didnt care.. i was so pissed off.. thru the wae he react to me, the wae he treated me, the wae he expect to do ect.. i gave up.. and i told him.. so he begged fer one laz chance.. and made a deal... the nex time he made me upset, cry ect i get the decision to do anithing.. so it like frm now on it my wae.. bla bla bla..

hey i got to go coz lab start oredy... continue the nex part in the nex post.. or the post after the nex one.. nvm.. refer to the comming post ~ cont. part 2... bye!!

so much for harry potter

2007-07-16T20:49:00.000+08:00

well.. juz like wad we plan.. we went to watch harry potter... it didnt go out well.. the show itself was not sastifying... and the person who watch wif me pissed me off.. well.. ferstly let me start frm morning... reach sch late... well.. i had to wake kit up at 0700h.. i knock his room like i want to tear the house down.. then left to sch.. wore my new tube dress.. got my feedback werking.. wif help frm gorge.. then i went fer pd.. got my project back.. got B+.. okie laa.. have to do good fer presentation so i will get better grades.. hmm.. the presentation on week 16.. remind me to get some clothes frm sis and make up.. impt.. impression bla2.. and obviously i hav to use her shoes laa.. i got all those playful shoes.. and sis ones can be formal.. then DE sux.. i dun get it.. donno wad crap.. got to go to cms to study on my own.. but at least i got some part understood wif help frm abdullah..
went to meet him... hmm.. started out well.. we ate lunch.. then got the ticx.. went ard bugis.. saw lots of nice2 clothes.. hehehe.. watch harry potter.. well the show was okie2.. 3 and a half popcorns out of 5... not that great.. fought wif him.. gtg.. nuryna started her nonsense.. brb...

nonsensical reality

FYP-ing

Happy Valentine's day

my birthday wish list

super long

still at hm

shud i, shud i not??

fucked up day

he is gone fer now.....

treasure when u still can

day one

selamat hari raya!!

to those taggers

happy fasting to all muslim ppl

late update...

selamat penantin baru lalat

Singapore is such a small country

such a fun day

welll

hmm

thanx to dayah im stuck to this song..

special thanx

i still want him back in my life!!!!

the truth

come to think of it

what is in my head rite now..

tiring dae

so true

2nd week of school

second day of school

first day of school

strange..

bored like hell..

shit

is he the one???

a free saturdae..

haix.. like shit..

pizzahut craza

in school....

formal thursday...

countdown: 2 more days!!

count down: 4 more days.

xian2..

*countdown* 16 more days

back frm batam

the most gundu dae ever...

im in deep shit....

Happy 200th post!!

DAMN IT

Close to one week..

in cm1

mood now: not good.

In Computing Mathematics

sleepy

haix

3 more daes..

in CM1 tutorial

updates

in e learning??

in lecture room..

burning the midnight oil

hey there!!

first week of raya is over

ferst post in sch

pictures

Selamat hari raya people!!

my tots

welcome new comer

A new Fone

12th dae of fasting mth

result is out

i dont get it

bored dead..

ferst dae of fasting!!

"I Don't Love You"

a forbidden want

spacing

aper nak uat eh?

somehow

my tots

countdown 16 more days