is thiS the enD?

10:42 PM

Tuesday, May 20

for those who read this.. pls pls pls dont tell reduwan... basically he dun really noe i got a blog... else he wanna read it... haix... that will kill me... i noe.. this is my blog.. bla3.. and its my free space to write what ever i want... but he.... well.. he's a lil diff... coz he is like so called hot tempered... hmm... and he will 4ever sae he is right laa... sometimes its true laa.. that he is right.. but i got my points too laa...anw.. its not that i want to keep things frm him.. but its his reaction laa.. will make me suffer... so whatever you read here(esp for csc ppl) pls pls pls!! keep it to ur self... tok here.. end it here... i hope i can trust u guyz...

well... the story started laz week.. when his grandmother passed away ( adeq says some prayers).. i dun have sch that day.. so i decided to drop down at his house and see how is he doing... everything went out fine until my guts told me to read his msg... and wow... to my suprise the is tis unknown number msg him.. it was flirtatious.. and things like when will you call me kind of msg.. that means that is not a first they tok to each other laa... hmm... and to make it worse, the msges comes in between of my msges and calls... that means he got a lot of chances that he can tell me... but he chose no to laa... and a few more msges after my call... that is when he saes he wanna to sleep.. and he ask me to sleep too.. well.. im not so was he lying to me.. and he was up at nite toking to her..(well the wae the person msg more like a gerl wound msg laa.. with all the style2 like uUu.. asL lAmE nYe nAak caLl i..) hmm.. i was so upset.. when you were to read ur guy msg and found that u will be upset rite??(that is if ur a gerl laa) so i step out of the room and pretend to watch tv outside laa... it that y he dun like me to touch his phone?? so when i calm down.. thought and reassure that that msg might not he for him i went in and ask him.. he got pissed off that i was bringing attitude.. like wtf laa... i ask him nicely laa... but like fuck laa.. we fought.. and guyz being egoistic he didnt apologize.. he told me that his sis used his phone the night before... i ask him y didnt tell me.. he even blame me that i didnt tell me when sariman msg me.. well.. he was there when sariman msg me laa.. so fine.. i pretend to belive him and shut up abt the topic laa.. i waited fer his next move.. and more evidence for me laa..

then juz now while he was sleeping.. i decided to serch tru his phone laa.. the msg all was clean.. so i look tru his his manager file... then i went into this folder after folder.. blank->enter code->passwerd->security and to my suprise again i saw 4 female pic.. and i noe who is the gerl.. and it was ivy.. yes.. csc ivy.. whatever her name is laa.. four pictures!! and kept in there as if it was hidden.. hmm.. so what does that show?? i didnt wanted to jump the gun so i didnt sae aniting.. he woke up and saw me with his phone.. he panic fer a moment.. and ask me wad i was doing wif his phone.. i told him i was watching tv.. i wanted to see how long he wanted to keep it away frm me... well.. on the bike otw hm, i cant stand the urge to ask, so i did.. i make it sound like it come in the blue moon.. ferstly he sae he didnt noe that it was inside.. then when reach my house, i showed him the pics.. then he sae she wanted to bluetooth it to donno hu.. then he keep the pic.. what does it show?? tell me laa!! im like so pissed off... but i cant to sae how laa.... i donno wad to sae laa.. i feel like crying.. but i donno how to cry.. my tears like a dried well... im so confuse.. i donno how to trust him laa.. shud i trust him?? i donno.. well.. i shud look for more evidence... who care to help me?? haix...

well.. he is actuallie on the line with me now.. haix.. i donno laa.. pls tell me wad to do..........