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until that love one left u dead on the ground..
so no matter what, find your stand and keep on going strong..
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three cheers for me.
she is the one and only
adeQ. and totally heads and heels over
Reduwan.
adeQ is 18 in the year 2008. she is currently studying in nanyang poly.
1:59 PM
Saturday, November 25
well.. currently im at my aunt's house..
opp tamp mall..
tats y i am able to use the comp..
darn..
even this big cherful house is dull and lonely..
ever one is out..
okie lets see..
illa, nuryna and kit is at macperson..
fer abt 1 weeek..
so tat leaves me alone at home now daes..
bella, wanie and their fam are out fer vacation...
to melacca...
tat leaves me alone in the neighbourhood..
since i dun realy hang ard wif the creeps downstarirs animore..
schools out and still searching fer jobs...
darn boring...
no one want to hire me..
last resort is to werk wif bella...
(hav to persuade mom to allow me to werk at nite...)
mom, dad are out fer jemputan then to werk...
nek getting ready and waiting fer cik na to wake up..
to go to jemputan..
tok not feeling well..
he juz complaint he kept on heavng headache...
cuzzies got thier own plan...
and no hope on bro here..
useless..
he watching the 14hrs plus korean drama show..
not in the mood to watch so here i am..
waiting fer him to wake up...
and call me..
im so moody nowdaes..
so todae my genaral mood is lazieness...
i haven bath yet..
dad sent me here by his cab so i dont bother to get bath and get dress...
anihuu..
juz now cat juz pooed on the chothes outside...
so mom was frustrated...
and whined to dad wen he reach hm..
now i now who i follow..(complaining and whining...)
frm mom...
she sound the same.. darn her...
i want to complaint!!!!
i think i noe why i am moody...
its becoz i am so called lonely..
its not that dear had not done aniting to cheer me and keep company all the time he cud..
he did...
but it cudnt cheer me coz it cud not make up all my unhappiness..
thanx dear..
but u see...
everyones away...
i misses sis lazieness and nuryna nonsense...
i missied bella's crazieness and wanie noises....
all i get is nags frm mom..
restristing all my freedom...
eg. yest i go gig...
i enjoyed it...
but to mom, i was out wif sis eating at lau pau sat...
she belived it partialy...
i want to be like the others...
like bella...
like him...
the get freedom so easily...
they cud come home 2 in the morning....
and nothing much will happen..
me??
i cud go out until 6 and only fer a good reason..
laz time my reason was sch..
now it was job..
but not all the time i cud go out...
i am lost in my own city...
i wan to go to esplanade and see sun set..
but i cant..
why??
coz I HAD TO BE HOME BY SIX!!
and if i tell mom i wan to go out to hav furn..
she yells NO!!!
if i still go out...
she willnags for daes...
confiscating my stuff..
and restrict me frm going out fer daes...
freak..
i want freedom...
i want to go pit..
and chalet..
and tell her the truth...
and able to go at the same time...
but why cant i??
is it bcoz of sis??
coz laz time mom gave all those freedom and took advantage of it..?
so she does not want histoy to happen again on me??
then wad she expect me to do??
clean the freaking house??
sit at home and be a nerd??
watch tv??
and feel happy and relax bcoz im stuck at home??
hell no...
i want to be normal..
i want to enjoy...
i wan to hav fun...
once in a whilew i want to come home late...
i want to go to all the shopping mall..
other than tamp mall...
tat is the only mall she allow me to go...
why??
coz its near..
i feel like a kampong kid in a city...
when i go to causeway pt...
i awed all tat was there...
thing were wow to me but normal and boring to others...
fuck...
then when can i get my freedom oficcially??
80?!
wad she tinks i am??
5??
i cant stay home alone..
i needs some one to babysit me all the time..
bla3..
fuck!!!!
fer all who feally want to noe...
i cudnt go to gp coz mom wont pay fer me..
1)coz she saes its too expensive..
2)coz it will end late..
3)coz i will meet my frens and do nonsense stuff..
4)coz she thinks all i do is JUAL PUKI!!!!!!!(she tinks im a bitch..
and a prostitude.....!!)
she tinks i cant stay home alone...
fuck...
im sick and tired of all this..
i ending this post here...
but all this fuck will neva end..
haix...
i yell fer freedom...
i scream i love him
